Baby_James94
August 26th, 2011, 01:58 PM
I don't know if this is in the wrong place, if not I'm sorry...
For a few months I mood swing to the point that people think I'm Bi Polar. It freaking pisses me off because the moods flip through so fast but they are so extreme that it freaks me out. I'll get so mad that I'll hit things, I get so depressed to the point that I wish I could go back to hurting myself, then within 2-5 minutes I'm happy and perfectly fine. I don't know if I'm bi polar. But I also seem to see people in the corner of my eye when no one is there, I hear people call my name when no one is around, my friends tell me I'm 'paranoid'. I'll be driving around and anyone behind me might be following me. If I go into the bathroom I look in the cabinets and shower for someone standing there or a camera. I feel like eyes are on me at all times. I know a lot of you are going to tell me to go to a counselor because they can help me.. but I don't want to be admitted into the psych ward... I do not and will not let it happen... I just don't know what to do or think. I've told my dad little bits here and there and he's seen my mood swings... I feel like any time someone goes into the kitchen they are going to come back with a knife, I can't sit with my back facing people, my back has to be against a wall or i get major anxiety. blahhh... idk anymore..
For a few months I mood swing to the point that people think I'm Bi Polar. It freaking pisses me off because the moods flip through so fast but they are so extreme that it freaks me out. I'll get so mad that I'll hit things, I get so depressed to the point that I wish I could go back to hurting myself, then within 2-5 minutes I'm happy and perfectly fine. I don't know if I'm bi polar. But I also seem to see people in the corner of my eye when no one is there, I hear people call my name when no one is around, my friends tell me I'm 'paranoid'. I'll be driving around and anyone behind me might be following me. If I go into the bathroom I look in the cabinets and shower for someone standing there or a camera. I feel like eyes are on me at all times. I know a lot of you are going to tell me to go to a counselor because they can help me.. but I don't want to be admitted into the psych ward... I do not and will not let it happen... I just don't know what to do or think. I've told my dad little bits here and there and he's seen my mood swings... I feel like any time someone goes into the kitchen they are going to come back with a knife, I can't sit with my back facing people, my back has to be against a wall or i get major anxiety. blahhh... idk anymore..