I'm done trying

[Charlotte93]

so i cut last night bad, 6 really deep and they bled alot. It was on my sholder. Today i tryed throwing myself back into things hopeing i woud just get over the little slip up but it wasn't a slip up it was just me relapsing and i want it. I want the blade so bad and i gave in, but now i don't think i can come back out. I felt alone today, like nobody could here me when i talked but saddly it's true. Nobody herd me today, i needed help and noone saw the mental meltdown i had coming, It's not worth it to try and stay with the people who don't see me and know that i need help.

I just want to be found, to be loved and looked at and noticed, all i want is someone to love me and just me. But no one sees it, the pain im in. I keep on calling out for help but they don't hear or they don't care enough to want to hear. I'm so afride that i won't make it out of this without being hurt so bad that i can't ever fully recover. I just want sombody to care that i bled last night and that im hurt, but noone dose.

[MalditoDia]

i feel for you. I cant say i know what your going through. This may not matter cuz i dnt know you but i care that you bled. I dnt want you to get the blade.

[Brokeandbetrayed]

I hope you feel better. Many of us feel like we won't make it out of it, but it's possible. Eventually you will find someone who will like you and just you, don't give up. Were here to help :)

[fenrirdies]

I knowvhow you feel I was having a bad day too carved up my arm. One of the good things about dark skin people can't see cuts on me, but my mom could tell something was wrong . I didn't say what I did but it did feel better someone knew I was not ok. She is bipolar and can tell I guess from experience, well if you want to talk to someone I'm willing to listen just add me .

[dontcare97]

I know how you feel. You're screaming for help and everyone walks away, letting you drown. It's not a good feeling to have knowing that your in pain and no one knows you enough to understand or notice.

It's okay, sometimes the best way to fight is to fight for yourself or even for a thing. People let you down but thins can't. Try establishing a connection something that will need you if you were gone, like a plant or an animal. A stuffed animal or a book. Something that needs you to give it meaning and something that you can whisper you pain into. It's like having a security blanket. You give it love and affection so it means something to you.

This is what I used to cope. I wrote poems in a special notebook. Only I could see it or use it. it was mine and I loved it. It made me feel better about myself some how. Like I was actually winning and doing something so great. maybe it will help you?

Also, you aren't alone. You have hundreds of people who get what your saying. i hope i could help.

[xktx]

Hey we're here for you, and were always here to listen :) pm me if you want, or add my on msn :) were here for you, I thought id never ever give up, i thought i was stuck in an endless cycle of pain and blood, but its been 3 weeks. :) x
Someone will come along, that person will make you stronger, help you, listen to you and love you :) that person is there, you just have to wait. For now were all here, and we understand and im always (unless im asleep/at school) ready to listen. xx

[RakshaMalayka]

Honestly i feel like this all the time. That no one cares and my voice is just drifting unheard. But the thing is people do care, whether you realize it or not. And the some of the people on here, no matter if you know them, get what your going through and actually care. Honestly i know you dont know me so this might not mean much, but i do get it. I deal with this feeling alot. And I, along with others, are definately here for you