Argument's got me triggered all day -.-

[LittlePaperStars]

Kay, so mom told me that she wants me to quit right now. She 'NEVER wants to see another cut ever.'

She doesn't understand how hard it is to quit like that. I'm trying, but I'm weak. I don't dare talk to her about this, because I know if I do, she won't understand. She doesn't try to get my point of view.

We argued over this for a LONG time, and that really triggered me.

I tried writing in my journal, but she took it away, and read every word. That really got me upset.
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Then I went to my doctor today. We talked about basic stuff...I'm the healthy weight for my age, average height, and I don't do drugs or smoke. Blood pressure, and reflexes are good. Then we got talking about depression and cutting. I showed her mine, and we talked about how mom makes me feel...stuff like that. When my time was up, she told me she was gonna try to find a pshycologist or therapist for me.

Hopefully, it's a girl...

[Love.Hate]

You can ask for a female therapist, I have because I didn't get on with the guy so much. Talk to your new therapist about this, how she makes you feel. Maybe if your therapist spoke to your mother she would be able to see things from your point of view? It's worth a try. I hope things work out <3

[LittlePaperStars]

You can ask for a female therapist, I have because I didn't get on with the guy so much. Talk to your new therapist about this, how she makes you feel. Maybe if your therapist spoke to your mother she would be able to see things from your point of view? It's worth a try. I hope things work out <3

Thanks, I hope things work out too...I think I'll try that. <3

[christcenteredlife]

maybe you can get her some information on how cutting is an addiction and needs to be worked on like an addiction.

[LittlePaperStars]

maybe you can get her some information on how cutting is an addiction and needs to be worked on like an addiction.

I thought about doing this but never did it...thanks alot, maybe I should do that!

[fenrirdies]

what she is doing is like saying don't shoot anyone and giving you a loaded gun . Tell her she is just pushing you towards hurting yourself.

[LittlePaperStars]

I think I'll consider telling her that. Thanks guys.

[Aubrie]

If you tell her that she pushes you to cut, try to word it in a non-blaming way the best you can (i.e. "I feel (insert feeling) when you (insert thing she says or does), so please try to understand this."). Maybe try having a group therapy session where your therapist can sit down with both of you and explain to your mom what cutting is/isn't, how it needs to be dealt with, etc., and mediate between you two discussing your feelings.

I've been through cutting, group sessions, recovering, etc., so if you have any questions or just want to talk, feel free to PM/comment me.

[LittlePaperStars]

Thanks guys, I really appreciate it. I don't know the date of my first session, but it's sometime next week. Hopefully it'll go well and I'll be able to let you all know how it's going. :)
xx

[Amaryllis]

Oh honey, I'm in the EXACT situation as you are. My mother keeps trying to "help" and now she's not allowing me to go on the internet unless I'm doing it in public. She's even stalking me on VT. It's horrible. She's probably reading this right now. I wish she would just leave me alone. Hardly anything triggers me but her. She's the reason why I relapsed after a year! I'm trying really hard to be cruel and just hate her because then I won't give a damn and maybe she'll get the message and just stop bothering me. She also eats so little and it's so triggering.

Anyway, enough about me. Ask her to do more research before she comes and just tells you to "stop". What we really need is hugs and people just being cheerful. Laughter is the best medicine. Not invasion of privacy and "help". She's destroyed the one haven and sanctuary I have. The one place where people look up to me and don't think of me as the weird little freak. She's destroyed it.

Tell her you need happy moments, faith in you and trust. Not "The Talk". Good luck, Hun.

Love,
Faith and Trust

[LittlePaperStars]

I'm sorry that your mom's the reason why you're replasing. :/ That's not really fair. Have you asked your mom to try to eat more, or go to the doctor or something?

I'm trying to take all these suggestions and use them when I can. I've done happy things with my family lately, so I've been feeling a bit better, but I also went to the doctor and I'm supposed to go to a therapist next week. I'm nervous. Maybe scared.
Hopefully everything will go well.

Thanks guys, hope everything's good with you. :)