Well that was a mistake...

[Lia11]

Hey, I'm new to VT. I cut. So I'll probably be around this forum... :\

Anyway, earlier today I was reading in my room and had iTunes up playing music. The music video of Fuckin' Perfect by P!nk was playing when my mom walked in. (Here's the link, if you haven't seen it, but potential trigger warning: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocDlOD1Hw9k&ob=av2e ) If you haven't seen it and wouldn't like to watch, let's just say in one part it involves self-injury and shows the girl cutting.

Well, my mom walked in partway through the video and was wondering what it was, so I started it over and let her watch the whole thing. Big. Mistake. At the end, she started going on and on about cutting, and how horrible it is, and et cetera for about 15 minutes straight. Even though the video is not overall completely focused on self-injury.

She has no idea that I do that. I was considering telling my therapist because my parents would find out then, and it would be an easier way for me to have them find out through my T. I was unsure how they'd react. Now I guess I know how my mom would and I'm definitely not going to say anything...

*sigh* Guess the point of this was just... Anyone else get really hurt/pissed/affected strongly somehow whenever people around you who don't know talk about self-injury like that? How do you handle those feelings?

x
Lia

[Upintheair]

Absolutely. I was with some friends and screaming music came on and one of them laughed and said "turn this off! This is freaking cutters music" which started them on a rant about how cutters are "attention seekers who are just too unstable to deal with their feelings with anything else." And as Im sure you have figured out, I cut. It made me feel so self conscious, and like I could never tell them, even though they are my best friends. It really hurt, and deterred me from telling anyone. Its really unfortunate because I was planning on telling them about it before all of that happened.

[Love.Hate]

My mum sat and made me watch that video. She was crying and saying how could I do this to myself. I think the media portray it more as a suicide thing than people actually, trying to cope. When people are talking about it (that don't know I do it) they awlways think it's stupid and such a bad thing to do. I tend to leave the room or ignore them, because there is nothing else you can do. If you disagree people get suspicious.

If you want to tell them, I think if your not confident enough to say it. Them getting told through your therapist isnt such a bad idea :) good luck!

Oh and welcome to VT, if you need to talk at all vm me. Take care Lia, see you around :hug:

[LittlePaperStars]

My mom totally let me down when I told her. She doesn't understand.
But I'd totally let your therapist know about this. I'd also suggest writing in a blog or journal? Maybe talking to some friends who support you might help you out? Do something you like to do...if you don't want her to know about it, then maybe you should watch what you show or tell her? :/
I hope everything goes well. If you need someone to talk to, drop me a PM, okay?