Painted_Indian_Horse
August 23rd, 2011, 08:08 PM
i went to my pediatrician today to get more prescriptions for my ADHD and depression/anxiety meds, and a check-up or whatever. And the last time i went she saw my scars on my stomach and I, obviously, got the routine questions. bla bla, did you cut yourself, bla bla, why do you do that, bla bla. so that's like the first thing she asked when i got there. Luckily my mother wasn't there (i drove myself), though i doubt she cares. Anywho, when she asked me today, i don't like to lie, so i was like yeah i have. Got all the questions. I think she thinks i do it just because of anger, cause that's what all her questions were about and shit. But that's not just it, but i wasn't about to tell her that. :P
She was like "we need to get you to the point where you don't feel the need to do that anymore" or something along those lines. but what if i don't want to stop? it's not like i'm killing myself. i use antibiotic. I heal just fine. I didn't tell my doctor this, but that's what I was thinking the whole time. I want to keep doing it. I only do it occasionally, anyways. It's because of a lot more than anger. It's a compulsion, a release, and all those goodies.
Anybody don't want to stop? Or am I the only one comfortable with it, and only slightly guilty when I splurge? :confused:
She was like "we need to get you to the point where you don't feel the need to do that anymore" or something along those lines. but what if i don't want to stop? it's not like i'm killing myself. i use antibiotic. I heal just fine. I didn't tell my doctor this, but that's what I was thinking the whole time. I want to keep doing it. I only do it occasionally, anyways. It's because of a lot more than anger. It's a compulsion, a release, and all those goodies.
Anybody don't want to stop? Or am I the only one comfortable with it, and only slightly guilty when I splurge? :confused: