So close.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

So freaking close. I can't.... That's pushed me over the edge... I need to... But if I start, I don't know if/when I'm going to be able to stop. The urges have been bad enough without everything that happened today.. I can't... I'm close to breaking down. Close to just get a knife, close to doing some serious damage. All I do is mess things up. My best friend... well who I thought was my best friend is still annoyed at me and apparently doesn't see me as a best friend any more. I just... It's just too much... Please. Someone take it away. I don't want these thoughts. These feelings. Not now.

My hands are shaking.

I still owe myself 10 for the crap I've eaten today.

If I start, I don't know when I'm going to be able to stop. I don't want to do it though... I've held on this long. I don't want to dissapoint my girlfriend... I don't want to be like this anymore. I don't want to have to rely on cutting to make me feel happy, in control...

I'm losing it. Fast.

[LittlePaperStars]

I'm sorry I didn't read this before, I want you to know that you shouldn't let a bad day push you off the edge. You've come so far!

Maybe you should write it out in a journal? If you need to talk to someone, I'll be here, okayy?
xx Good luck :)