having a panic attack that I'm overweight

[bambino]

sorry guys I really need to vent and get my thoughts out.

I'm struggling a little. Having a teeny crisis, I just looked at my photo and realized: God I'm actually getting bigger- my body's actually putting on weight.

I mean I'm trying to eat a lot better so obviously I'm going to get bigger.
It doesn't help that one of my friends is extremely thin and her friend, a guy, is very cruel about weight-even if someone has a tiny bit of weight he'll call them fat. I went to a gig last night, like a load of other teens playing guitar for charity. But when I met my friends all I could think about was whether this guy was thinking how fricking big I looked. Or if my chest looked too big in the Tshirt and how I wished it was just flat, and that my clothes were looser and my legs were thinner.

I'm going away to a health spa for a few days and im already dreading the buffet meals. Buffet means going up and picking food and people might think I look greedy. Also there's biking tracks so the chance to exercise- i wont exercise dont worry. I'll just make myself lounge. I will.
Ughhh wish me luck, I'm going to try really hard guys. I'm going to make myself eat something now. I want to look healthy I really do, I want the hair and the skin- it's just, sometimes it's so hard.
Stay strong, love you guys x

[StoppingTime]

Well good luck, and I can even tell from your pic, your far from fat. If anyone sys you are, just think, do they even know you well, and if they do, they're probably saying it to make themselves look and sound thinner. Don't worry, you'll do great.

[xDarkAngelx]

Good luck with the health spa! From your pictures to me you look perfect how you are, so there's no need to worry what people are thinking. As Steve said don't worry i'm sure you will do great.

[Lethe]

Wow. If you think you're fat, then I'm an elephant. And I mean that sincerely.

Who cares what this one guy thinks? Obviously he isn't a very good person to judge by appearance. Forget him?

[ShadowGirl]

You're so beautiful and don't you ever forget that! You can do it!

[Amaryllis]

You are -far- from overweight and don't worry about people thinking "wtf why is she eating so much?" I used to worry about that too but you know what they're really thinking "wow, she can eat and stay hot." The men are thinking yep, they like a girl who eats. The women are filled with envy. Really, relax. Have fun. Eat. You're beautiful no matter what. Weight is not your entire life. I'm proud of you

Love,
Faith and Trust

[Travis Is Losing It]

You really arnt fat imo. and who cares what other people think. Only person that matters what they think is you. Sure you can spoil yourself for a week/end but you gotta watch about doing it all the time thats what will make you fat not a week/end of enjoying yourself. Exorcise when you get back but dont burn yourself out

[bambino]

You're right. I'm really sorry guys, thank you. Just had a little blip. Chants mantra: I'm more than my weight I'm more than my weight
Going away now, stay strong all of you! x

[LifeisLife]

Dont dread the buffet and don't worry if you look greedy if you have a full plate, like my mom and dad say: we payed for it so we get to enjoy it, take what you want!

[Travis Is Losing It]

:) Cat just remember if you can be happy with yourself thats all that matters :)

[Amaryllis]

What they all said. Proud of you for posting though. You don't have to act strong all the time, Amber. You don't have to be perfect. Good luck <3

[bambino]

Back! I actually struggled a lot with the buffet to begin with. It didn't help that i dropped my food on the floor by accident- wanted to die. I went up for seconds when i felt more comfortable. Had a 5 course meal in evening [was so yummy i have to admit] and the waiter was flirting with me i was so embarassed and he kept pressuring me to eat more, he was just making conversation but i was so bashful- sigh- thats life! i just smiled and willed him to go away.

Infact I ate as much as possible. It helped that most people there were older, hardly any teens. Wanted to just go in the opposite direction to starving. i havent weighed myself but im pretty sure ive gained more weight. Not long and ill be a healthy weight :D :D
stay strong guys, sorry for the update if you werent interested haha

[xDarkAngelx]

Thanks for the update! I'm pleased to read that it went well for you and that you had a good time. Well done for going the opposite direction to being starving. It's good that you are starting to make progress, well done and keep it up!:D