I'm over everything

[HeartCoreHannah]

I have no feeling in my left arm. It's been bleeding since last night at 10:00. It's now 3:37 in the afternoon.. I couldn't stop cutting last night. Then once I did, I was so dizzy, I felt like I was dying. I took 14 Advil and 10 Biotin hoping to speed up the process. When I woke up this morning, I cried. Cried the hardest I ever have. I honestly don't want to be alive anymore. I don't want to deal with the cutting. With the purging. With the bullying at school. I'm done with it all. If I wasn't such a fat fucking cow, the pills would of killed me last night.. But noo, I have to be obese. It's sad when you can't even OD on medication because you're so fucking disgusting fat. I hate myself so much. I'm going to cut then go to bed.. I fail at everything else. Even killing myself. So I might as well go to sleep.

[xDarkAngelx]

When I saw the title I thought/hoped it would be postive for you. I'm having trouble finding words of comfort to help through this undeserved time your going through. Looking at you profile picture you are definately not obese in my opinion and an atractive person, Please try and see that. Do you see a therapist?

[StoodAlone]

Yeah i agree with george your not obese. Killing yourself is a solution but its no were near the best one. There will always be those people but feel so insecure they have to insult others to make themselves feel important. If you get though this think how much stronger you will be.

[HeartCoreHannah]

George, yes, I'm seeing a therapist. I have been since Feb. but thanks for the help. Both of you.. And StoodAlone, I honestly don't think I'm going to make it through all of this. I will never be able to say I'm stronger.