Do I have an ED?

[LittlePaperStars]

I'm not sure if I have an eating disorder so I hope I won't offend any of you who do have ED's.

I don't eat anymore. My appetite is very very small now. The thought of eating anything makes me sick. If I do eat, (mom watches me at the dinnertable) it's usually a really small portion.
I never eat breakfast and lunch anymore. I've been depressed for 4 months, so I'm not sure if my not eating has something to do with that.
I'm always hungry, but I never feel like eating. I feel like I'm starving myself...purposely.

So...do I have an eating disorder?

[FuzzyLittleNightmare]

I'm not a doctor, but I'm afraid I would say you are at risk yes. The only reason I say this is that is how it started for me, when I was 12 or 13. I'd be late for school so just grab an apple for breakfast to please my mum but only take a couple of bites before tossing it. I wasn't hungry at lunch either so would skip buying it or bin it after just one bite. I wasn't doing it to lose weight at first and so didn't think anything of it, and laughed when people joked that I must be anorexic. But then I started noticing that my clothes were looser and I had less baby fat around my face. That made me very happy so I kept doing what I was doing. I always wore jeans and hoodies so no one knew that I was getting bony beneath my clothes. I then started to skip dinner, claiming I had a big lunch and staying behind after dance class to lose more weight. It became addictive.
Believe me, having an eating disorder is a curse and I would deffinitely beg you to be careful and try eating more, even if they are only small portions. And don't count calories! It is one of the worst habits to get into!
Feel free to messege me if you want some more advice, there is stuff I don't want to post for everyone to see but can tell you if it will help :hug3:

[LittlePaperStars]

Thanks so much for your advice; I'm going to the doctor's on Wednesday, so maybe I could bring it up? I'll message you soon, okay?
xx

[FuzzyLittleNightmare]

Good idea, better to be safe than sorry :) Good luck!