I don't know what to do anymore...

[FuzzyLittleNightmare]

I've been doing so well lately...I haven't cut myself in 3 days though I have bitten my fingers quite alot. I have also eaten at least two meals every day the past week, even though they have been small meals. I thought I was doing ok. I thought maybe I could get better.
But today I'm in such a bad way. My hands are shaking so bad I can barely type, I'm having to sit on my hands to stop myself from reaching for my razor blade, I have only eaten about 300 calories and my feet are twitcihing with wanting to burn that little bit off. I'm tired but can't sleep and my chest feels so heavy, like I am struggling to breathe. I just don't know how much longer I can cope without going under...

[Muridaee]

I think once I start trying to get better, and actually make a little progress, I think it's always going to be that way. But it never is. I have good days and bad days. Sometimes I can go several days, or weeks even, but then BAM it hits me again and I go down. Sometimes the littlest thing can set me off.

I don't have an answer for you, sorry. Just thought I'd at least let you know I'm out here and what you're feeling is what I feel sometimes, too.