Came out :)

[Travis Is Losing It]

Ok so just starting off on how i found out i was bi which will be very hard for me to talk about... Either way i was raped by my best friends brother when he took me to visit his college that he went to because i was reeally interested in the college at the time for biblical and religious studies (didnt really have a set major in mind) i was up there for the whole easter weekend and he kept me locked in his dorm room for the three days and proceded to rape me as many times as he could... still his family does not know... the pain i felt after that grew inside of me and eventually turned to hate and anger and somewhere down the line i realised i strangely loved it from another guy... Back to me coming out x.x i started dreaming and fantasizing of guys and girls and i was talking to my friend ruth about it whos like my sister and she though maybe i was bi. i was thinking about it alot and came to accept im bi. So i got on facebook and posted a status at 6 pm when EVERYONE was on x.x freaking 120 people just in the chat alone saying (sorry for language) "IM BISEXUAL GET OVER IT iF YOU DONT LIKE IT GET THE FUCK OFF MY SHIT" and somehow managed to make more friends then i lost because they respected me for being able to accept myself.

[christcenteredlife]

congrats on being able accept yourself, but i'd seriously consider counseling for the rape. (not because you're bi, but because rape is serious and messes with a persons head). i'd also talk to some people because he shouldn't have been allowed to keep you locked in a dorm room like that. people on campus should have realized something wasn't right or asked about you since you were visiting. i'm really sorry that you had to experience what you have. no one should have to endure that, ever! i am happy you have been able to accept what's happen to this point and hope you can get further help through some type of counseling to work through it more. many times these events leave scars we don't realize or see until we do some hard work and out what we didn't know what there.

good luck to you and it's great people accepted you and didn't show hate!

[Travis Is Losing It]

I actually am completely accepting of the rape and have gotten over it. I even posted a note in facebook (people love reading my notes for some reason) explaining what happened (without letting people know to much) and that im over it and its in my past.

[christcenteredlife]

that's really good, but know it could come to haunt you later in your life. you may think you're over it now, and find later you really aren't. so be careful and try not to be too tough about this.

[Travis Is Losing It]

Thank you kai. if it starts bothering me even in the sightest bit again i am going to try and get counseling

[christcenteredlife]

good for you for being open to the idea. i live in a foster home and almost all of the foster/adoptive kids here where at one time abused sexually in some way, both boys and girls. some felt they where over it until recently. it was a big shock to find out some where even abused because they never mentioned it, but one day something happened that triggered a memory and a very bad reaction.