Feeling worthless

[Spinner]

I feel like a bother to everyone so I spend most of my time alone. Even when I'm in public like a party I a lot of times stand by myself. My friend just got through two break ups and no one even likes me enough go to a break up I don't even want to meet girls because I'm afraid I will blow it or annoy them or something. My friend says come on let's go talk to some girls be friendly just ask how are you. I say no all the time, I tell him I'm not looking I don't want the drama, but what I really feel is I want to so bad. Knowing me I will blow it because of my low self esteem, so because of this I am depressed I spend my life downing myself, listening to a7x, and lift weights to try to keep my mind off of cutting or suicide.

[AltoVaughn]

I understand in our world where there is so many ideas of the "Perfect" man or woman that it is hard for a lot us to Love ourselves. I struggle with this myself, but what I do (and what I wish you would try) is making a list of things that You Like about You.

No one is worthless. People care about you even if it doesn't seem like it. And I can see one just from your post, your friend is trying to help you out.

[Spinner]

I know he is, and his situation is pretty bad also he says I'm the only one he can talk to because his dad is a controlling jackass and don't wanna hear or don't care about his problems. So we just talk to each other which helps what worries me is he is saying he's going to drown himself in the shower or shoot a nail gun through his heart.

[AltoVaughn]

I know he is, and his situation is pretty bad also he says I'm the only one he can talk to because his dad is a controlling jackass and don't wanna hear or don't care about his problems. So we just talk to each other which helps what worries me is he is saying he's going to drown himself in the shower or shoot a nail gun through his heart.

Well it sounds like you both have something to benefit from talking to each other. I'm sorry to hear about his situation. I hope he can help you work through everything and vice versa. Nothing's better than a real life friend who's willing to talk to you.

Eh I hope I made you feel somewhat better.:( I know how difficult it is sometimes to like yourself.

[Spinner]

We can only talk on the phone because of his situation.

[judahtics]

well be happy to know you can't drown yourself in the shower, not unless you knock yourself out first anyway. and if this bothers you, talk to him. let him know you don't like the conversations and you think talking about positive things might help you out.

[AltoVaughn]

We can only talk on the phone because of his situation.

This really sucks, But at least you're able to remain in contact with him.

There's Very little I can say At this point, but I hope things get better for the both of you.

[Amaryllis]

Life is not about never failing but getting up every time you do.

You don't know till you try. We all fear failure and rejection but how do you get anywhere in life if you live in fear all the time? Sure, there will be people who'll hurt you but nobody can bring you down without your consent. Life is a roller coaster. But why do people go on them?

Give it a go. You'll find someone. Or if you don't, well, too bad. You got the experience. Give yourself a chance.

Love,
Faith and Trust