So yeah.

[Break the Cage]

Last night, i took ALOT of pills, no not the good kind either. felt so shit was just going to od and get myself into hospital, then i decided i didnt want to, made myself throw up twice, probably jsut in time.
then today, still felt crap, even worse actually. went to the coast, and to the big cliff. i stood/sat on the edge (past the safety fence) for like 20 mins, trying to decide whether i wanted to or not
one of my best mates rung me, i just started crying on the phone he was like whats up i had to tell him where i was, he came straight down and tried to talk me round, did a relaly good job i coulod tell it was messing with him too cos he was crying also
i was just going back, and some fucker calls the cops. they come over and take all my details and shit and get my mum down straight away
so yeah, mmm interesting at home now.
i was close to going.

[thesphinx]

man im sorry you have to go through this,
whats making you feel like this?
is there a problem
have you seen a counselor?
there are a lot of things that you can do to help you feel better.
you just have to find them.
please done give up
we care for you
keep us updated.

[JustJuss]

wow, im glad ur ok for what its worth. I too have had a similar experience only, at the edge of a lagoon.
thats not to make ur experience seem 'common-place' or smaller, i just understand how unbelievably crap u must have felt/ feel. I personally wouldnt want to feel it again.

Maybe this mate that came to the cliffs.. maybe u could talk to them about whats up..even if u dont know what it is. It can sometimes help to not feel so alone or like the world is on ur shoulders.

Im sure thay would be only too grateful to be there as much as they can for u. Of course we are here too, but in the flesh can be even better.

Let us know how u are??

[Break the Cage]

i have talked to my mates about it, and my parents found out so i had to briefly explain some of it to them... managed to blag my way out of talking to them about it for too long though. No matter how supportive my mates are, I might see a councellor.

[Link3737]

dude...my parents found out about an od incidence once when i was under SOOOOOOO much stress from my friends ditching me (some friends huh?) and my gf dumping me cuz of my depression and my grades falling and my parents freaked and took away ANYTHING dangerous in my room afraid that i would commit suicide 0.o