Things aren't ever going to get better

[HeartCoreHannah]

When I cut back on cutting or try to quit cold turkey, my purging gets worse. I don't know what to do. I can't stop both. I'll have nothing. I'll have nothing to save me when everything in my life goes wrong. I don't know what to do. I'm being controlled by nonsense. ugh.

[bambino]

Hi Han

I understand. Because for you cutting and purging is a coping mechanism. I'm the same.
But I have not done either in 4 months now. It is possible i promise.
You have to find alternative non-destructive ways of coping to replace it like reading, writing, just sitting down trying to calm yourself down and rationalize for a while. I'm sorry i cant give you a specific list of what to do, but ultimately it requires a whole lot of will power and the ability to forgive yourself. Even if you slip up, to forgive yourself and keep trying.
it really can be done. never give up hope

[HeartCoreHannah]

Congratulations. That's a huge accomplishment. And I'll remember that, thanks dear.