Do I deserve to be happy.

[AltoVaughn]

I once again find myself writing useless complaints. I really wish I understood why I'm so unhappy. I question if I even deserve to be happy, or loved for that matter. I honestly dislike myself. I'm unattractive, vindictive, lazy, and arrogant.
Do I simply have a self have a self hatred complex I need to get over? Possibly.

I suppose the best thing to do would be to use the acknowledgment of my flaws to improve myself. I'm not sure I have the willpower to work towards that goal. I guess all I can do is wait and see.

I apologize for the useless rant/bitchfit. :(

[Timmy93]

Dude everybody deserves to be happy. You're looking at life in a totally different way. Everybody has something they don't themselves that's why there are millions of things we do to try and fix them but if other people can see past them why can't we? It's ok to be down sometime but cheer up there is somebody out there for everybody and girls don't like guys that don't look confident. Just smile and find a hobby so you won't be lazy because being sad gets you NOWHERE and just hit me up I'll be more than happy to talk to you bro.

[DarkHorses]

Everyone deserves to be happy. Yes, you do deserve to be happy. But that doesn't mean you automatically will be. Happiness is not unreachable, but you also have to work to make it achievable. If you find yourself thinking nothing but negative thoughts, you are not allowing yourself to be happy. I think we look at happiness as something that gets loose and falls away from us, when really we are the ones letting go of it because of the way we act, think, and believe.

I think the first step is realizing your happiness IS in your control. It's not some illusive, unattainable dream of yours. If you work towards you, you do deserve to be happy, and you will be happy. But you can't sit around waiting for happiness to simply find you. It doesn't work that way. You have to change the things you don't like about yourself and your life, and learn to accept the things that you cannot change. Nothing is ever going to be perfect, so before you set out on your search for happiness (yes, I realize that sounds incredibly corny) you have to realize that while you can reach happiness, you will never reach perfection. So don't be so hard on yourself.

I hope things work out for you and you find yourself in a happier place soon. Good luck :)

[AltoVaughn]

Everyone deserves to be happy. Yes, you do deserve to be happy. But that doesn't mean you automatically will be. Happiness is not unreachable, but you also have to work to make it achievable. If you find yourself thinking nothing but negative thoughts, you are not allowing yourself to be happy. I think we look at happiness as something that gets loose and falls away from us, when really we are the ones letting go of it because of the way we act, think, and believe.

I think the first step is realizing your happiness IS in your control. It's not some illusive, unattainable dream of yours. If you work towards you, you do deserve to be happy, and you will be happy. But you can't sit around waiting for happiness to simply find you. It doesn't work that way. You have to change the things you don't like about yourself and your life, and learn to accept the things that you cannot change. Nothing is ever going to be perfect, so before you set out on your search for happiness (yes, I realize that sounds incredibly corny) you have to realize that while you can reach happiness, you will never reach perfection. So don't be so hard on yourself.

I hope things work out for you and you find yourself in a happier place soon. Good luck :)
Well thank you for your words of encouragement.
Also It's worth mentioning your avatar is amazing.