Feeling depressed

[superstar2067]

So lately I've been feeling really f-ing depressed, sometimes I just want to run away to somewhere new other times I just want to kill myself to be rid of the complications of life.
What's worse is I'm slowly pushing my bestfriend away and I know I'm doing this but I can't stop. She can tell I'm feeling down but she isn't trying to help, she isn't even asking what exactly is wrong. Now I know she's going through some stuff as well but can't she actually at least ask.
Today in chem I was feeling rather depressed and I hear her say to a mutual friend of ours "Cheer up emo kid," Now I know she was referring to me but even if she's going through stuff can't she at the absolute very least not make fun of me.
The worst thing of all is I feel like I deserve this.

[Dark_Desires]

why dont u ask 1st i know i have had the same situation and u dont deserve it i have felt the way had a friend like yours i made the step of talking to them 1st and it helped
hope i helped :D

[superstar2067]

Yeah, right now I'm talking to her on facebook but I don't feel like it's helping. I'm afraid that I'm either going to repulse her and have her push me away or I'm going to bring her down with me.

[Dark_Desires]

why dont u tell her what u told her be honest if shes a true friend she will stick by you

[AltoVaughn]

Well, I understand that if your friend is going through her own severe problems that she might not be emotionally available to help you. That said, She doesn't have to be a bitch about it.

[serenitymoonshine]

wow. :o shocking how this sounds very similar to what i'm going through....anyway, it seems that you've tried talking to her and it doesn't help. but the reason she may act that way is that she probably isn't aware of how severely depressed you actually are,i know my friend isn't. and like you, i feel i am pushing away my best friend as well and that it is completely my fault. another reason could be that she is too focused on her own problems that she really isn't paying much attention to the outside world.i think you should try writing her a letter, it will get your point across clearly, and you can easily change or edit anything before actually giving it to her. another thing to try, is writing her the letter and reading it out loud to her, that way you can get her opinion as soon as you finish rather than wait for a letter in return.