Fell apart

[ShadowGirl]

I was doing so good with not cutting. I went 9 days without touching my knife! But my family has been falling apart and I can't ignore it anymore. I made 76 cuts on my arms and legs tonight :( My depression is getting much worse and I don't know what to do. I told my mom I'm depressed and she says I'm overreacting but I know I'm not.

[Twistember]

I know how you feel. My family has fallen apart too. It happened when I was 4. Now I'm 15 and I still feel it. One night 3 years ago when I had a big fight with my dad I cut pretty badly on my wrist and forearm. Now I'll always have the memory of that fight. It will never go away because it's scarred on my arm.

I'm being a huge hypocrite saying this, but when you feel like cutting try to help someone else. Come on here and give someone advice. When you feel like cutting, focus on someone or something else. This is what I try to do.

As for your mom, keep telling her you think you're depressed. Don't tell her everyday, Just every so often. And if she brings up that "You're just doing this for attention" shit, don't listen to it. Do what you need to do get yourself help.

If you start having suicidal thoughts, please call a suicide hotline. Or if you don't want to do that, PM me on here. I've been in that position before and I know what it feels like.

Stay strong, never surrender, and good luck :)

[senior.2013]

Listen to Twistember. Bring it up with your mom, not on a regular basis but where theres repitition.
You have plenty of people on here who are more than happy to help you. Ifall you need is someone to listen, I'm here. My email is under my contact info and feel free to click it any time.

[StoppingTime]

If you bring it up enough times appropriately, then she'll know something is going on. Also is you feel the need to cut, do what Cat said and come on here, or do something to take your mind off of it. If you ever need to just vent out, Im here. Also, if you are really having serious depression or suicidal thoughts, get some help immediately. (suicide hotline, etc...)

[xktx]

just try staying at a friends house for a bit..? It helps to get away from them... if only for a bit x