Pills

[Iris]

Everyone has been pressuring me to get pills, it seems. It started with my best friend. She's been going to psychologists on and off, and one day her father asked her if she wants to go to a psychiatrist to see if she needed pills. She said yes, and has been on increasingly higher and higher doses ever since. She then started pushing me to get pills too. So I talked about it to one of my psychologists, who also thought it was a good idea. But I don't know...I just never went through with it. Today, though, another one of my psychologists told me he wants me to go to a psychiatrist, and get pills for anxiety and depression. I told him I would...but I don't know if I will...I just feel like if I get pills then i'll officially be a nutcase. I'll feel like I'm irreparably messed up...like I'm too weak, and can't take care of myself. It's not like I don't know I'm messed up; I'm depressed, have social anxiety, I self-harm....But right now I'm taking care of myself-badly, yes, but I'm doing it on my own. I don't want to need help. I want to be fine on my own. I want to fix myself on my own. Taking pills would be like acknowledging that I'm so incredibly messed up, I can't take care of myself, mentally, anymore...I'd feel so incredibly weak...

Sigh. I don't know what to do...

[NobodysCupOf Tea]

Needing help Isn't a sign of weakness. If you're feeling this crap it may be an idea to look at taking a couple pills. Hopefully not for a long period of time, but its worth a shot if you can't quite do it alone and need a little help. :) good luck kiddo

[bambino]

I was the same. I was angry that I couldn't be happy on my own, that I couldn't look after myself. That it had actually got this bad.
Although truthfully above all of that I was really more concerned that if I took pills I wouldn't be myself, I'd be a zombie. It scared me to death!
I can honestly say they really do help. I can see why people surrounding you are eager for you try them, but ultimately, its your decision to make.

They make you a lot more apathetic and a lot less anxious, about everything. The only thing I dislike is that they can make you feel - removed. Numb. But for small periods of time [4-6 months] they're definitley worth a shot.

[AltoVaughn]

I was the same. I was angry that I couldn't be happy on my own, that I couldn't look after myself. That it had actually got this bad.
Although truthfully above all of that I was really more concerned that if I took pills I wouldn't be myself, I'd be a zombie. It scared me to death!
I can honestly say they really do help. I can see why people surrounding you are eager for you try them, but ultimately, its your decision to make.

They make you a lot more apathetic and a lot less anxious, about everything. The only thing I dislike is that they can make you feel - removed. Numb. But for small periods of time [4-6 months] they're definitley worth a shot.


I bet alot more people needs those pills then you think. A lot of people just aren't public about it. Half my fucking family is on clonipin (Sp?) .

Don't be ashamed of needing medication. It's there to help you (hopefully),

[Iris]

Thanks for answering guys. I know I should take pills. I know they should make me feel better. But I just really really don't want to. I suck at dealing with reality, and taking pills would be like reality staring me in the face.

I'm going to my psychologist tomorrow, and I think I might bring it up again...I don't know if I'll have the strength to go through with it though... :/

[Curiousasian]

don't do the pills unless you know exactly what they are

[anon1992]

you wont be a nutcase if you take pills. but pills are over-rated. SSRIs have not been shown to be much more effective than placebo. and i took an SSRI, it did nothing. only when i tried to get off it, i felt worse and it was hard getting off. but there was no improvement when i was on it.

[Amaryllis]

Honey, asking for help is showing -strength-. It's saying you -want- to get better. I'm friggin 14 and I'm on poop loads of pills and I mean pooploads. Although, you shouldn't rely on them. You can't live on them forever so yes, you should try to go without them but not now. You need something to help you through right now and there are things for that. You can't do it alone. No one can and no one is expecting you to.

Be strong and reach out. You don't have to be alone anymore.

Love,
Faith and Trust

[Iris]

I just like doing things on my own, taking care of myself. I've learned not to rely on anyone (or anything) but myself. I don't like getting help. I don't like feeling weak or vulnerable. I don't want to need help. I like being alone, at least in this aspect.

But I did tell my psychologist that I need pills. She said she'd set up an appointment with a psychiatrist she knows. I guess the question now is whether I'll take the pills...