so close to giving up :/

[xktx]

ok, its been 6 days since i self harmed. but the last week has been the biggest nightmare. :/
I have (had) a dog, her name was lucy. She was 12 she got cancer, and died :'(
My auntie, is in hospital, overdose. :/
My mums operation went really wrong. :/
one of my oldest and bestest friends just died :'( <3 RIP <3
Im suprised ive laste this long, but it may have been because i havent been at home for nearly a week, and when i has, ive always ha someone over. x
Bt now im alone, and i feel like giving in. I want to watch the blood and feel the pain and feel normal again, even though i know it wont last long :/ i know ill have to do it again.... and again :/ x
Any ideas? I know its quite alot of garble... but :/ x

[LittleEpidemic]

Have you got like a red sharpie or something? It might sound weird but if I'm trying to not cut then drawing on the place I cut in red sharpie kind of helps... I trace my scars with it.
Or you could try squeezing ice cubes or snapping rubber bands..
Watch your favourite movie? Write?
Just keep yourself busy... until the urge goes away
You've done really well going this far well done, you should feel proud about it. Just try your best and if you do slip up then try again but this time go for 7 or 8 days.
Recovery is a slow process but you can do it (:

[xktx]

ive been in recovery for about a month now. Ive only slipped up ermm twice (ok one was rather bad, but :/) im proud of myself, but its tough :/
I usually do the sharpie thing (but with biro, i dont own a red sharpie) but its not working :/ im cold anyway (have no idea why) so ice cubes arent cold enough :/ and i dont own a rubber band :/ x
cant concentrate on a movie, im just sat in the lounge with the family, cant o anything while infront of them, well thats the theory. x

[LittleEpidemic]

Have you got hair ties with the metal bits? They work too maybe better, but staying around people is a good idea

[xktx]

err... ill have a look. Thanks :) x
and yeah, i have a friend who self harms she says to stay round people who dont anger you. Then you dont get annoyed, but you cant do anything. x

[LittleEpidemic]

Just try to not think about it... which is hard but yeah..
If you need anything just message me x