They've given up

[FullyAlive]

I have honestly tried to get help for how I feel, and no one listens. My doctor has been great she referred me to CAMHS and i got set up with counselling in May, since then i've been 4 times. I've seen my counsellor 3 times one of which was the initial assessment. On my second session he told me he was rather concerned about me, my mum had told him about the police coming to my house, he said he didn't like how low i was getting. He told me he thought it was in my best interests if i saw a psychiatrist, and that he wanted me on medication. My doctor agreed and said that she would prescribe it as she thought it was the right course of action. I wasn't too keen, but as i've just got lower and more on edge than ever, i started to come round to the idea, after all they are theeir to help, they know best.

But today i went to counselling as usual, i was entirely honest with him about just how bad i have been lately, he asked about the self harming and i told him the truth its not good i fell asleep wrapped in a towel bleeding last night. He told me to get rid of the razor, i explained my qualms about that, he then proceeded to tell me i sounded desaperate and pathetic.

He then told me i sounded a lot better, and he'd see me in September hopefully for a final check. I just don't understand, why has he just given up. I'm not okay, i need his help. I fell terrible most of the time. I told him that and he didn't listen. He's gone from referring me to a psych for medication to deciding i am ok in just one 40 minute session. I wouldn't mind but i know i'm not. And i don't want to just fall off the edge.

I wanted their help, what do i do now?
They've left me all alone.

[Love.Hate]

This isn't good, first off I'm glad you got help. Your close to your doctor right? Well tell her you don't understand how he could change his mind, tell her what you said to him. Because it doesnt add up. If he was going to put you on medication, why the next week would he think your okay?

Can you write him a letter, saying your not okay? And he has got it wrong and you think you may actually need medication? Because this is messing you about. Confusing you when you don't need the extra confusion.

I know it's hard, but is it possible to just mention something small to your mum? Just so she can query his descision. If you know he is wrong and you feel worse, don't give up persuing your battle to get better and to have help.

:hug:

[fenrirdies]

Have someone else look at you a second opinion couldn't hurt

[christcenteredlife]

first off, you did good by going to help. next, you need to appear to be accepting help. if you don't appear genuine to the doctors, they will as you said, give up.

sometimes, when people aren't completely honest from the beginning, and try putting up a front, doctors don't know whether or not they are truly looking to get better. than, on top of that, your bad reaction to their idea of medication probably didn't help. i think you did great on thinking about it and realizing it is for the best and being willing to give it a try.

i'm not sure your doctors have given up on you, but think you're actually doing ok. one thing you MUST remember in life, is you are the only one who can make you better. no one else can. only you can get through those tough moments and only you can convince yourself you are worth it. it's ok to look to people for help, but in the end, you need to remember, you are worth the work.

[OptimusPrime]

Well he seems rather pathetic. I suggest you look in the phone book for other counsellors because to be honest if he does this to other people he'll be fired. Why worry about him when there are most likely other people around that WILL listen and HELP.