Ifan
August 14th, 2011, 09:00 AM
Well... I'm 16 but I've never had a relationship of any kind with anyone. I have lots of really close friends but most of them haven't been in a serious relationship either. One of my best friends (a girl) is even a Jehova's Witness, so she's not even allowed to and I don't think about her in that way.
My best friend is a girl who I've known forever and we are so close, but never that way. I guess I've never gotten into a relationship because I've never felt anything serious for anyone. I consider myself straight, and I don't know what I would do if I decided I really were gay (except feel kinda stupid at first:P).
The thing is, I don't really want to be gay and it doesn't feel entirely right for me, like I would be doing it just for sex, yet I get aroused instantly with gay porn or hot guys, and not often with girls- just in a different way, I guess.
This year I had a really messy thing with a girl who had a massive crush on me (I was oblivious- thought we were just friends, I don't even talk to her that much...) and I felt like I could have gone out with her, but there was no point because I didn't feel anything for her. She is really beautiful, and such a great person, but I never really think of people in the way of getting into relationships. It kinda freaks me out. Especially when girls are asking ME for that when the primitive thoughts hadn't even crossed my mind. I'm think I'm so naive sometimes. I get straight As in almost all my subjects (creative arts overachiever :D) but I am so much of a virgin I don't know what I'm going to do with my LIFE.
If ANYONE feels they can explain even one of these life mysteries, ta muchly :)
My best friend is a girl who I've known forever and we are so close, but never that way. I guess I've never gotten into a relationship because I've never felt anything serious for anyone. I consider myself straight, and I don't know what I would do if I decided I really were gay (except feel kinda stupid at first:P).
The thing is, I don't really want to be gay and it doesn't feel entirely right for me, like I would be doing it just for sex, yet I get aroused instantly with gay porn or hot guys, and not often with girls- just in a different way, I guess.
This year I had a really messy thing with a girl who had a massive crush on me (I was oblivious- thought we were just friends, I don't even talk to her that much...) and I felt like I could have gone out with her, but there was no point because I didn't feel anything for her. She is really beautiful, and such a great person, but I never really think of people in the way of getting into relationships. It kinda freaks me out. Especially when girls are asking ME for that when the primitive thoughts hadn't even crossed my mind. I'm think I'm so naive sometimes. I get straight As in almost all my subjects (creative arts overachiever :D) but I am so much of a virgin I don't know what I'm going to do with my LIFE.
If ANYONE feels they can explain even one of these life mysteries, ta muchly :)