One year... Four slip ups

[RequiemForADeath]

It's been one year and I've only cut four times, given each of them were deep slashes that i probably should have gotten stitches for, but oh well.

My girlfriend cuts too.. It makes me want to when she does. In fact I've told her that if she does I do too, that I re-open all my scars and such.

I tried to take a pack of 5 x-acto razor blades from her house today, I don't know how but she knew i had it and took it away from me. All day I've been wanting to cut yet she made me promise not too.

How am I supposed to keep my promise if she can't even stop herself? She tries by writing it all down.. but that once failed and she ended up carving it in her leg.

I love her with everything in me I just want to get us both away from everything that makes us cut and depressed.

My mother and sister have taken away all razors including shaving razors and all the knives and semi- sharp things out of my possesion on my asking.

Just tell me things will get better and they will be okay... with everything...

This girl... who is my girlfriend's ex, she cuts too, she's on here too. But she doesn't know what I really want to say to her, and probably never will.

I just need out.

Now.

[Bobby]

Ok, why do you cut, because you think it's cool? If so, it's not really, and if anyone (including your girlfriend) tells you to cut, you shoudn't being hanging around them.

[Everglow]

hi there!

for right now...i would suggest that you write all of your thoughts down on paper...for your eyes only...write...draw...scribble...ect...til you feel your sadness pour out of your mind...i have done this so many times..especially when i feel like cutting again...but it works...

you are not your friend, and i hope that you do not carve thoughts into you legs, arms, etc...

do you and your girlfriend go out and have fun? it sounds like you two need more social interaction...it helps to get your mind off of things...expecially cutting.

know that i am here for you...know that we are all here for you and your girlfriend (s)....please, if you ever feel like hurting yourself or others....don't hesitate to contact us first!!! we can help the best we can

[RequiemForADeath]

i dont cut for attention, thats what my old therapist said and i stopped going to him. my girlfriend and i do go out and have fun, but we also have a ton of stress in our lives, her more so than i. and i would write things down but people would find it.. people would shouldnt find it and that would be bad.

[going to sleep]

[Everglow]

goodnight....when you wake up, read this....

do you have a safe or something like that you can lock your stuff in?...how about like a school notebook...just stuff it in your back pack

[RequiemForADeath]

I don't have anything I could lock it in.

I'm wainting for my girlfriend to get home but she has alot of razors in her room right now and with everything from my mother possibly having breast cancer to my dad nearly have a stroke yesterday.. i really need to see blood flowing out of my veins right now.

[Everglow]

ohhh dear...please don't cut yourself. i know you are going through a tough time right now, but hange in there :) some of us are humbled that you even asked for our help. your life is so imporant to all of us!! we all support you...we are your support when you feel like you have none! i understand that you are going through a very difficult time right now, but trust me we all have seemingly insurmountable difficulties and problems, but we somehow find the strength to get through them...this forum is so that you can get love and support from kids who have stuggled just like you. we are all here for you. don't hesitate to talk to any of us!!!

[RequiemForADeath]

It's all fine no. No more worries.

[Everglow]

I'm glad to hear that! If you ever need anything, don't hesitate to just ask us! That's what we're here for!

I wish you the best