Am I a terrible person?

[HeartCoreHannah]

I love Michael with every fiber of my being. I honestly do. I'm positive he's my one and I've never been so sure about anything before in my entire life. But my ex boyfriend just had a baby. He's 17 and already has a child. He only knew the girl for two months before they started dating and they were only dating a week before they had sex. She ended getting pregnant, and well nine months later here we are.. Anyways, he was the first person I ever loved. I was with him my entire freshman year and was happy with him. We ended up breaking up because I wouldn't have sex with him... He's not a bad guy, just sex crazed. But am I awful for wishing I'm the one who had his baby instead of his "fiance"? I do love Michael and I want to have a family with him, but I'm still stuck in the past thinking about what could of been.

[anonymous53]

You're not a horrible person, but you've found someone better now :)

[kevinjk]

i agree you arent terrible youre just deciding about a big moment in your life :)

[HeartCoreHannah]

Thanks guys.

[PervertedStalker]

nope ur not terrible, u r just thinking about ur future and hey, this is pretty normal really.

[Kujiro]

Firstly, i felt it is an awesome move, and took plenty of guts to reject sexual advances from someone you love.
Now look at the crap he is in, hes 17 and now tasked to raise a child and his wife to be.
Hes bidding his teenage life of fun and dance goodbye.
And not forgetting money, i'd seriously doubt it would be any eazier task for him to start saving up for the responsibility he is about to bear.

I am in no position to judge his character, but i would conclude that he has to answer to his own actions.
Im sure like sXe-Amo-X has mentioned, you would have someone more worthy now.
Its a time to let go and move on, and not let past demons hinder the future or current relationship you have.

Let it pass, and come back as a better , stronger person.
Sex should always be a dessert to a love, never the main course, if its going to be the main course, then something is not too right.

Take care
*smile*