i don't wanna say i'm anorexic..

[loveless420]

but i do have an obsession with my weight & with the things i eat. i always make sure i measure out my portions so that i can keep track of the calories. i try not to go above 800 or 900 a day. i weigh myself multiple times during the day, as if an hour or two will make a difference.

i used to be made fun of in middle school because all the skinny girls would call me fat & ugly. & my sister is extremely skinny & people are always comparing us.

i feel huge pressure to be skinny because my fiance is always looking at other girls. so if i don't look good, why would he stay with me?

he makes fun of me for the way i do things, but i don't think he understands.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

I know what u mean,my sister is so beautiful,and has everything I want. And whenever im around her,we ALWAYS get compared..I hate it. It makes me feel like shit,like haii! Hello! Im right here! Cant u see me? Am I invisible? But as hard as it is,u have to remember,u are who u are,and f*ck other people. From ur picture,I can say ur very pretty and have nothing to worry about. I dont like to admit I have an ED either...It bothers me...Idunno why. Have u tried talking to him that it bugs u that hes always looking at other women? Or maybe try to explain why u do what u do,so he has a better idea and understanding? Sorry I couldnt be more of a help. : /

[loveless420]

it does help just talking to someone. i feel invisible too. she is always telling me how fat i am & telling me i need to lose weight. my mom too. & my fiance cheated on me with some chick & it just lowered my self esteem that much more. like... am i good enough for you or is there something i'm missing?