Ughh, please just let death be near.

[HeartCoreHannah]

I woke up this morning, realized I wasn't dead, and cut because I was disgusted. All those Tylenol PMs are calling my name. I don't know how much longer I'm going to be able to hold out on taking all of them... Jesus Christ, why do I have to be the one feeling this way?

[judahtics]

sorry your life is so terrible. i hope it gets better in time.

[HeartCoreHannah]

Thanks. Me too.

[bambino]

Replied on your other thread. Telling you to wait it out, depression will pass however hard it is to believe now.
I want to repeat my sentiments here. It does pass hun, just hang on. Try antidepressants they can be a blessing. Call samaritans or email them - they're life savers.

[Bath]

If you even have to sit on your hands to keep from getting a hold of those pills, do it. I'm going through the same feeling, I know that doesn't mean much since lots of other people feel this way too.. but idk, I guess I just feel like letting you know. I kind of find beauty in the fact of how so many people want to taste death.. maybe not beauty, but fascination. I guess that is a reason for me to stay alive because I don't get to acknowledge that if I'm dead. I don't know how your mind works, but maybe that's something to think about. It's different.

I know how the bad outweighs the good sometimes, but it won't always be that way, I promise.

[HeartCoreHannah]

Replied on your other thread. Telling you to wait it out, depression will pass however hard it is to believe now.
I want to repeat my sentiments here. It does pass hun, just hang on. Try antidepressants they can be a blessing. Call samaritans or email them - they're life savers.

What are samaritans?

If you even have to sit on your hands to keep from getting a hold of those pills, do it. I'm going through the same feeling, I know that doesn't mean much since lots of other people feel this way too.. but idk, I guess I just feel like letting you know. I kind of find beauty in the fact of how so many people want to taste death.. maybe not beauty, but fascination. I guess that is a reason for me to stay alive because I don't get to acknowledge that if I'm dead. I don't know how your mind works, but maybe that's something to think about. It's different.

I know how the bad outweighs the good sometimes, but it won't always be that way, I promise.

I hope you get better as well. I'm the same though, I have always found death fascinating. Even though that may sound a but morbid. But it's such an easy escape from everyone and everything.. I know no matter how hard things get, I can always get out, by committing suicide. It's awful to think that way I know, but it's true.

[bambino]

samaritans.org

look it up hun. They have a number you can ring, or you can email them. They're like a support line if you're feeling depressed. You don't have to be suicidal to ring them- just having some troubles. They'll listen and try and help you work out whats in your head

[HeartCoreHannah]

samaritans.org

look it up hun. They have a number you can ring, or you can email them. They're like a support line if you're feeling depressed. You don't have to be suicidal to ring them- just having some troubles. They'll listen and try and help you work out whats in your head

Thank you so very much. I believe that site will be very helpful for me. I really appreciate you giving it to me.

[Amaryllis]

I went to a the samaritans at one point too. They're really kind and they're there when you need to rant. Hell, you can rant to me if you want. I won't judge. I'm not in the position to. Depression truly does get better. It has for me. True, I've developed other forms of mental illnesses but they're all getting better too. And it's all thanks to this girl I'm been hanging with named Brandy :) She makes me laugh which is rare. I haven't laughed in such a long time.

Hold on. Things are gonna get better. We're here if you ever need us. And remember:

Life is what you make it - always has been, always will be.

Love,
Faith And Trust