Relapsed and Angry

[Upintheair]

I relapsed on my cutting. I had gone 6 long months without it. I had been so proud and so happy that I was finally done with it. But then one of my best friends committed suicide. I felt so lost and I didnt understand why this had to happen, but even then, I managed to pull through it. Well then my mother decided to say everything she could think of that would hurt me. I wont get into it but some highlights are "I cant believe I have a child as worthless as you" and "I dont know why I even try to have a conversation with you. We both know that its a waste of my time to talk to someone as annoying and stupid as yourself". Things like that for almost 2 hours. So I went upstairs, pulled apart the razor, and cut. I cant believe that I did it again. Ive been working so hard, and I let go of all the progress I had made. I dont know where to go from here.

[dontcare97]

I'm sorry for the lost of your friend. Just try to get back on. you mom might be a trigger and every time she says mean and disgusting comments like the ones above, associate her remarks with something positive like eating ice cream or listening to a favorite song. So when she says something cruel like that your first answer will be to eat something sweet or listen to some nice music, instead of cutting.

You should be proud of yourself. Six months is a long time. You can do it again.

[Upintheair]

Thank you. I guess Ive just been so overwhelmed with everything. It was like everything built up, and then exploded all at once and I couldnt handle it. My problem is that once I start to cut, it takes me so long to start trying to stop again.

[dontcare97]

It's okay! Stay hopeful. :) <3

[Amaryllis]

Oh, honey, it's okay. You'll pick yourself back up. You're doing amazing. I relapsed after nearly a year. You've done so well. Your mom is wrong. Usually people say listen to your parents but don't listen to yours. You're amazing. Don't ever let anyone bring you down.

Stay strong. You'll pull through. You don't fail till you quit trying. you can do it all over again and this time, even better than the last.

Love,
Faith And Trust

[LittlePaperStars]

I'm sorry about your friend; I know how it is to lose someone close to you.
You shouldn't let your mom get to you. It's not fair what she's doing to you; NOBODY should be going through that.
I plan on running away when I'm of age. Keep holding on- you can do it :)

[Upintheair]

Thank you both. It means alot tome to have the support. This relapse has been a bad one, and I just feel like everything is falling to pieces

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Im so sorry about ur friend! When my sister killed herself..I was completely lost. I know right now its hard to believe,but it will get better,and eventually when u think of her,it wont hurt. My mom does this to me all the time,I know how painful it can be,u just have to try to work threw it and not let it get to u ( Easier said then done,I know) As for ur relapse,U can still continue ur progress, its just alittle bump in the road to recovery. I know u can keep going : )