Dancing With Scars

[Amaryllis]

So I do ballet, figure skating, street dancing and hip-hop. Street and hip-hop's not too bad and figure skating's possible but ballet... My scars are increasing and getting deeper. You can see the cuts through my stockings and I don't know what to do. Plus, I'm getting to heavy for my ballet studio's standards. I don't want to be anorexic again but I still wanna dance. And I feel so self-conscious now when I do dancing. I feel like a fat blob jumping up and down.

But my main problem's hiding the scars. It's getting hard to swim too. What do I do? I'm scared my ballet partner will notice or someone in class. In the changing rooms or something. What do I do? Oh and most of my cuts are on my thigh, I try to cut high up but in ballet, it doesn't matter where you cut. It'll show.

Help, please

[dontcare97]

Can you wear thicker stockings, one's that aren't shear? Or maybe double or even triple up at on you stockings. That might help.

Don't worry about your weight. It's really hard to fall out of an eating disorder, I myself was bulimic and know how hard it is too stop. If you very feel like you're getting fat make a small choice. Eat more fruit, water rather than soda. Something small so you fel better about yourself.

Keep dancing, you seem to really enjoy it. :)

[Amaryllis]

Thanks, Rebecca. I'll try that. Hate it when the stockings scrape against my cuts though. I'm just really scared one'll open up and everyone just stares at me. My excuse is always "I fell into a bush" It's usually like this:

Person: Omg, what happened to your arm??
Me: I fell into a bush.

Person: What happened to your leg??
Me: I fell into a bush.

Person: What happened to your hip??
Me: I fell into a bush.

Soon someone's gonna go "What the heck is up with you and bushes?" and I'll have no idea what to say.

[dontcare97]

Thanks, Rebecca. I'll try that. Hate it when the stockings scrape against my cuts though. I'm just really scared one'll open up and everyone just stares at me. My excuse is always "I fell into a bush" It's usually like this:

Person: Omg, what happened to your arm??
Me: I fell into a bush.

Person: What happened to your leg??
Me: I fell into a bush.

Person: What happened to your hip??
Me: I fell into a bush.

Soon someone's gonna go "What the heck is up with you and bushes?" and I'll have no idea what to say.

Oh wow. I used that excuse that my cuts cut me. The cuts usually look about the same. One day some is goona be "Why in the hell is you cats trying to kill you?"

[Amaryllis]

Lol it's kinda funny how crappy our lies are. Gives me an inspiration for a thread xD

[dontcare97]

I kno right? It's better knowing someone gets you.:)