can't stop peeking....

[dajuvega]

a few weeks ago i saw my dad sneak out to go skinny dipping in our pool. I couldn't believe it! I watched him for a half hour or so, went to bed and dreamed of... well, IT all night. it was kinda fun, but i felt like a freak for doing it. the problem is I keep trying to see more now. We've always been a "pee with the door open, if you walk in on me naked it's no biggie " kinda family so this isn't the first time I've seen him nude... but the water must have been pretty nice b/c he was rock hard when he climbed out. I'd never seen him like that before. I want to stop thinking about it, I want to stop touching myself when I do think about it, but I also want to let him see me... maybe in a....compromising position, ya know? am I going to hell or just the looney bin?

[sammy1996]

can i ask what is it that makes you look etc, because hes male with a penis or is it becuase hes your dad?

[dajuvega]

No its not because hes my dad. i guess it might be that ive never seen a guy like that before. but its taking over my head now. im so ashamed but i liked watching. im starting to hate my brain. i feel dirty. its also making it hard to be normal around him. i cant sit on his la or hug him right now because my mind goes straight in the gutter and i have to go change panties. am i a freak?

it feels lik im just one lone creepy perve in a big empty place. i cant talk about this with anyone i know. id die of embarrassment. im sorry to bring it up here i just feel so alone in all this.

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[sammy1996]

nono, dont feel bad its just hormones,you just feel curious over male anatomy, every time you get wet from these thoughts just think, hes your dad,

[dajuvega]

thank you so much for being so nice, ive been lookin around on here and everyones all like ewwww dad.....grosss. it helps a little to know you can still be nice to me after i said all that. i just stillkinda wish i knew someone else with the same problem, or better yet someone who had gotten past it so they coould tell me how they fixed it. i miss cuddling with my dad. and hes starting to notice im acting wierd. like closing doors and keeping things covered up that would give me away. i think itsbothering him. i gotta fix it.

[sammy1996]

if it doesnt embaress you to much tell him, not everything just that now your are getting older you need your own privacy and your own space, maybe tell him about how you dont want to see him naked, not why just that you dont.
this wont go away without you speaking to him

you can still cuddle with him, but think of it as a cuddle not something it isnt.

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[Julien7]

just stop yourself from looking, no biggie just think about something else

[dajuvega]

what if he figures it out? i cant deal wit him thinking im somw twisted little skank, or to have him not want to hug me anymore!!!!! omg, this is a mess. i dont even want him to know im masturbating. akward much? i know youre probably right but im scared to death to do anything to make him think im thinking this crap.

[sammy1996]

erm, if u just leave some evidence of you masterbating (not over him) so he could know your are masterbating, and then he should work out to give you some space, but still go up to him for cuddles?
also your not a "twisted little skank" your just a you with some added hormones.
its normal

[Triste]

I do not agree with peeking in general.

[dajuvega]

well that helps. thanks triate

im sorry ... that was bitchy. im just a little twitchy right now. i appreciate all input.

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[sammy1996]

have you decided on what you are going to do?

[Sam95]

Yeah i would stop this because its your dad obviously, but sammy has the right answers

[dajuvega]

he told me this morning he wants to talk....... what the eff do i tell hin? should i just pass this off as teen weirdness or should i try to come clean?

[sammy1996]

probably dont come completly clean but atleast partially, depends what he talks about, he knows something is up. i really dont know what to tell you...
try not to be embaressed and explain some of your feelings, best not to mention that you were thinking of specificly him

how did it go?

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[beachbumchick]

been there, done that, lol! You're not a freak, a lot of teens go through a phase where they fantasize about a family member. totally normal. I'm here if you ever need to talk to someone! My yahoo info is on my profile :)
how did the chat go?

[Unsolvedmind]

I have the same problem so your not alone :) :D

[endgame]

been there, done that, lol! You're not a freak, a lot of teens go through a phase where they fantasize about a family member. totally normal. I'm here if you ever need to talk to someone! My yahoo info is on my profile :)
how did the chat go?

Completely agree. You saw a hard cock and you liked it. Seems perfectly normal to me.

[dajuvega]

omg im soooo glad you guys are here! thank you so much for letting me know im not the only one. the chat was weird. we re pretty open but this was all stuttery and akward. i didnt have the guts to tell him wha i saw or did, and he was confused so it was bad. i think ive hurt his feelings or something. he kept asking why i was pulling away from him. my mom freaked out and started asking if someone was molesting me. shes a litle clueless i guess. i tried to tell daddy that he was fine but i need to think about what to say.

for those who answered... how do you handle it day to day? does it make t hard to be comfortable dressing etc around those people? how did it start for youand how did you get pastit? cuz the more i try to move on the more i keep having penis on the brain? feel free o pm me if you want to talk. i have to use my kindle for inet( we re too broke for a laptop) so i cant chat or im.

thank you guys. i sooo love you all now lol

[kentucky girl]

I don't have a dad that lives with me so I haven't been in ur situation but I don't think it is so bad wanting to see his penis. I think it is normal to want to see one it is just a part of growing up. Don't think I would tell him because he might feel weird

[Haleygurl]

I know exactly what your going thru.. I have a dad and a stepdad. Not saying everything but I know how you must feel. I feel the same way. Get with me anytime ok. maybe we both need to talk to each other

[nippletree]

I saw my dad not too long ago with his "girlfriend", anyway he was nude in our hot tube, they were drinking wine and I didn't know that he was nude when I got in and sat on his lap. He just kinda cuddled with me while his erect ... was sticking out against my bum for a long while and I just acted like I didn't notice but I know he knew I wanted to stay there all night. I quit trying to hide my curiosity and now I just go to my room and take care of myself...

[Emerald Dream]

I saw my dad not too long ago with his "girlfriend", anyway he was nude in our hot tube, they were drinking wine and I didn't know that he was nude when I got in and sat on his lap. He just kinda cuddled with me while his erect ... was sticking out against my bum for a long while and I just acted like I didn't notice but I know he knew I wanted to stay there all night. I quit trying to hide my curiosity and now I just go to my room and take care of myself...

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