honestly, I don't know what to do.

[kacibaybay]

I'm sick of life. Five long years of depression. an eating disorder and self harm abuse have taken over my life. I've tried for self-recovery. I can't do it on my own. I see a therapist once every other week. I need more than that though. I need to be in some sort of treatment on hospitalized. I'm beyond suicidal. It's not even like I just think about it sometimes. It rules my life. I've been googling suicide methods for a week now, and pretty sure I know how I would do it.

I can't go to any kind of treatment because my family is broke poor and can't pay for it.

So I'm left to suffer. cool. I don't know how much longer I can go on.

[judahtics]

if you are in the states, go to a county hospital and they will get you the help you need. once you are in there, you will probably qualify for a form of government insurance who will pay for your stay and help you get the support and meds you need.

[dents]

hang in there kaci, most people here at VT are glad to help you out of your depressed state