fuck it!

[terith]

screw this,good bye all,I gonna kill myself tonight,nothing anyone can say to stop me! good bye!

[tt14]

no. dont. talk to me on aim. u prolly know nothin bout me but somthing is obviously pissing u off. jus talk 2 someone.

[Maverick]

screw this,good bye all,I gonna kill myself tonight,nothing anyone can say to stop me! good bye!
Then what was the point in making this thread?

[terith]

w/e! i hate u to tony

[Maverick]

You can hate me. I'm just trying to see what you want from us so I can see what I can do.

[terith]

i posted this to let everyone know that i'll be gone

[Hyper]

Right.. Mostly anyone that posts these things wants some attention and reassurance that someone would care ;P

[schrei jess]

We care, we do. But if nothing we say can change your mind, then why do you bother making this thread? I mean, we'll all say no dont if that's what you want, if you just want us to say we dont wand you to, we will...but if you really didnt think what we had to say would stop you, then Anthony and Hyper are right, what's the point?

[Whisper]

everyone stop harping him right now
this is your only warning if you do it again or even respond to this section of my post i'll delete ur entire post and give you an infraction
enough


~~~~~~~~~~~

I'm sorry that your upset hun I know your life must be really shitty right now and i'm sorry I cant just wash it all away
but I am here okay
you can talk to me or any of the staff about anything alright
were here to help
Please talk to us
what happened today?
what sent you over the edge?

[Maverick]

The point I was trying to make was that deep down inside you must want someone to stop you if you wanted to make a thread to read replies. You must not want to do it otherwise you wouldn't have bothered with the thread at least. You were seeking help because if you were suicidal you would avoid anything possible to try to change your mind.

Life will get better. Just hang on.

[schrei jess]

That was what I meant, I wasnt trying to attack him for posting this, just telling him we can see what's up.

Terith you know I care about you, I like talking to you on IM and such, it would be a shame to lose a good member like you, please reconsider.

[thesphinx]

please dont do it we all care for you pleease!
i will truly be hurt if you do this.

[Bobby]

Jess, Ant, stop.

Terith, whats wrong, what is the source of the pain?

[Maverick]

I'm trying to help, Bobby.

[schrei jess]

As am I, I didnt insult him or anything, I was telling him that I do care and I dont want him to die.

Gosh.

[terith]

well i felt insulted by your posts.

[Maverick]

I apologize for anything I said that might have been misinterpeted but know that it was never my intention to insult you.

Also nice to see you're still alive. :)

[Bobby]

Ok, we've apologized.


So Terith, how are things now?

[terith]

there fine,not worse not better,and apology accetped tony

[Maverick]

Can you be a little more specific in whats going on?

[terith]

I had to goto the hospital today :( i cut myself a little too deep and passed out,i really wanted to die from this cut but didnt work

[thesphinx]

aww man im sorry.
please dont try to kill yourself please.
you can fix this you can feel good again dont kill yourself please..
please just tell us whats wrong?
whats bothering you?
do you know why you feel like this?
you can get better please dont do it.

[terith]

everything is bothering me,when i went to school today,i got called so many names,i got hit so many times,i couldnt even count it,i spent nearly the entire day in the farking counselers office talking about stuff that isn't true!hate that school,and my parents just make my life worst

[Bobby]

Did you tell the conselor everything? The bullying, the cutting?

[terith]

yes,there thinking of taking me out of school again,I hope they do

[Everglow]

bud... you need to slow down....take a look at your life...are there things that you are happy with...any big accomplishments that you have been a part of...come on....please don't kill yourself...we all care about you...don't hesitate to instant message me if you ever feel like you just need to talk....i'm pming you to give you something....

[terith]

thank you for all the help and what not,but i really still want to kill myself/hurt myself

[thesphinx]

ok this is what you need to do if you truly want to go through with this.
do you have anywhere where you live that is very peaceful with no one around prefferably like a park or some where thats outside in nature, and you need to take a nice long walk through a park( or anywhere that is peacfule with no one around. like a forest a big field idk take a hike on a mountain whatever) and have a GOOD LONG think about this. and make sure you admire everything you walk by because if you die you will never see it again. think about your parents picture in your mind you parents getting the news"your son committed suicide" picture in detail the grief on there faces. picture there pain and sorrow, picture them 10 years later and you will still see the grief and sorrow in there faces.
it effects so many people even if you life is fucking hell right now please if not for you do it for everyone that cares about you.
and i am not trying to be mean about this in anyway we really care about you that is why i posted this.
when i was about to commit suicide i had a urge to just walk. and i walked to a forest and i just kept walking and i noticed every little thing about the forest and i realized that i could never see this again if i were dead, and i stayed in that forest for a few hours just looking at every flower every tree every bug just looked at how simple there lives are and from that point on i wasn't suicidal anymore.
but anyway you really better think this through every aspect of it not just yourself but how you will effect your family friends community. school etc
how it will effect us at vt there is alot to think about so i suggest you take a nice long walk and think it through all the way even things like my dog will miss me.
and think about how you parents are going to have to explain to everyone that you killed yourself and the guilt they will feel that they couldn't do anything about it.
and its something that will follow them to there grave.
and through all this suffering pain loss grief that everyone goes through, you still dont know where you will go?
you may just be put some where 12 times as bad.
so please for EVERYONES SAKE take a good walk and think this through
we care about you alot and we dont want to see another one go like that.
-mike

[*lynn*]

how are you feeling today? any better?

[Everglow]

how was your day today?

[terith]

today was fine actually,cut myself a few times,not thinking of killin myself rlly anymore :),oh thesphinx i took a hike today,thx for the advice,i sat up on a mountain top for like 2 hrs lol,just looking down on the city,and thinking,after i left,i relized I could have jumped! but i didnt. lol thank youz all fir the helps :) love yaz

[MrPeace]

dude, u dont know me, i dont know u, but i love u cuz ure a person, a human being...its all gonna get better, u just gotta keep goin and keep lookin for better things...it takes time...just hang in there man!