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August 6th, 2011, 05:16 PM
it seems like im not good enough for anything or anything.. i feel like the whole world is against me.. like everyone hates me..
my parents are always yelling at me.. no matter what.. if say my younger [12 years] brother ran a shopping cart over his foot, they blame me.. and scream at me.. or no matter what happens.. they always yell at me..
my parents have stolen money from me.. and they go through my room.. as if they don't trust me.. i specifically ask them not to go through my room, but they do anyways.. i keep diaries and journals in there that are private..
it seems like i'm completely disrespected.. my parents have betrayed my trust before.. a personal issue came up that they had to be told about and i asked them not to tell, and then i find out they tell people and they act differently around me..
it seems like they spoil my brother.. if he asks for something for 20 or 30 bucks.. they say yes.. for me.. they either say no or make me pay for half..
they don't listen to me when i say i need help.. my mom decided she doesn't feel like driving me to therapy appointments 2-3x a month.. when it's actually pretty necessary for me to go.. it keeps me sane.. or when i fall and land on my wrist and you can see it's fractured, they tell me to wait a few days and it'll go away.. yet if my brother 'trips over air'.. they rush him to the doctors asap..
they don't even listen to me.. i tell them i don't sleep at night.. or have so much trouble falling asleep.. yet they wake me up early anyways.. or if i wanted to talk to them about anything.. school, cutting, suicidal thoughts.. anything.. they wouldn't listen.. they'd just bull shit it..
i'd do anything to get out of the house.. if i had the option.. i would.. with no hesitation. i hate my parents.. hatehatehatehate.. and i don't like using that word.. but it's hard because there's no way they'd let me get emancipated, and if i run away.. the person i would stay with would get in trouble.. and getting pregnant just isn't an option for me.. i'd rather live in the streets than with them..
i feel lost in the world.. like no one cares.. no one to trust even if they did care.. i could kill myself.. and no one would notice.. everything is fake.. my smile.. my attitude.. my life.. everything.. i see no point in even trying anymore.. when it's just gonna get worse.. everyone says it will get better.. but it NEVER DOES. it ALWAYS. gets worse.. i don't even know what to do anymore..
my parents are always yelling at me.. no matter what.. if say my younger [12 years] brother ran a shopping cart over his foot, they blame me.. and scream at me.. or no matter what happens.. they always yell at me..
my parents have stolen money from me.. and they go through my room.. as if they don't trust me.. i specifically ask them not to go through my room, but they do anyways.. i keep diaries and journals in there that are private..
it seems like i'm completely disrespected.. my parents have betrayed my trust before.. a personal issue came up that they had to be told about and i asked them not to tell, and then i find out they tell people and they act differently around me..
it seems like they spoil my brother.. if he asks for something for 20 or 30 bucks.. they say yes.. for me.. they either say no or make me pay for half..
they don't listen to me when i say i need help.. my mom decided she doesn't feel like driving me to therapy appointments 2-3x a month.. when it's actually pretty necessary for me to go.. it keeps me sane.. or when i fall and land on my wrist and you can see it's fractured, they tell me to wait a few days and it'll go away.. yet if my brother 'trips over air'.. they rush him to the doctors asap..
they don't even listen to me.. i tell them i don't sleep at night.. or have so much trouble falling asleep.. yet they wake me up early anyways.. or if i wanted to talk to them about anything.. school, cutting, suicidal thoughts.. anything.. they wouldn't listen.. they'd just bull shit it..
i'd do anything to get out of the house.. if i had the option.. i would.. with no hesitation. i hate my parents.. hatehatehatehate.. and i don't like using that word.. but it's hard because there's no way they'd let me get emancipated, and if i run away.. the person i would stay with would get in trouble.. and getting pregnant just isn't an option for me.. i'd rather live in the streets than with them..
i feel lost in the world.. like no one cares.. no one to trust even if they did care.. i could kill myself.. and no one would notice.. everything is fake.. my smile.. my attitude.. my life.. everything.. i see no point in even trying anymore.. when it's just gonna get worse.. everyone says it will get better.. but it NEVER DOES. it ALWAYS. gets worse.. i don't even know what to do anymore..