Is it my fault ? SHould i fee like this?

[Hopegirl]

Right..so ive finally managed to bring myself to do this..when i was in year...7 at school ther was a guy in year 10/11 who i really liked...We used to walk home together and stuff...i told him how i felt and after that day he never spoke to me..after a couple years..i got in contaact with him again..he kept offering that we could do things with " no strings attached" i declined...yet i still wanted to meet up with him, just to see him again..so i asked if we could meet up..he said yes..it was quite late evening aabout 10..and i told my mum i was going out..she knew him so didnt say anything..he was at the end of my drive..i asked where shud we go..and he said the school field..(i lived opposite the school field..) we climbed the gate and he corneered me behing the fence..you couldnt see us from the road..i felt so scared..i hugged him just buried my face in his chest and wished he was the guy he used to be when i first met him and he grabbed by face and forced me to kiss him..so this wasnt so bad..ok..so i tried to move away but he kept pulling me closer...i could feel his hands allover me and he hand rested on my ass..i felt uncomfortable..i told him to move his hand..now..he wouldnt , i threatened if he didnt i would slap him..he looked at me mockingly like he knew i wudnt..so i slapped him jumped the gate and ran home..i spent 10 minutes in the drive..crying..that half hour with him left me so fucked up...i kept hearing his voice in my head that night just him repeating " your such aa good body to touch" ...hed said that..even know i spent nights crying paranoid hes coming to get me ...because i know if id stayed longer he would hve done more..i know it..nd now im left thinking..maybe it was my fault..i shouldnt hve met up with him...do you think i should have been left feeling like i was or did i just make a mountain out of a molehill ? I was chatting to a guy a year or so ago n he asked me for naked pics..it just brought it all bck..my ex ( t the time my boyfriend ) once locked us in his bathroom and we were just making out n he took my top off...i felt uneasy (i was 13 he was 19 ) ..he then took my bra off n this really made me feel like i wanted to die was so embarassing...:what: what do you think?

[anything4her]

I'll message you honey, xx I love you xx

[Hopegirl]

If you'r viewing this..please tell me what you think..i really need to know :'(

[PervertedStalker]

it is NOT ur fault, dont even think that. all of those things u mentioned are full on harrasment.And the thing about you being 13 and him being 19 is illegal no matter what. that is not saying it was ur fault. i am so sorry this would happen to you. if they still bother u, talk 2 an adult about it, that may help. =D wish yah luck!

[nahtE]

His actions were his own and you shout not feel guilty or ashamed or alone, abuse is everywhere. This ex of yours and his actions have haunted you. It is not your fault. Believe me I have had my fair share of abuse... giving and receiving it. I'm not proud of what I've done, but let me tell you that I have learned from my mistakes and you should talk and listen to those that would want to sincerely help. Talk to those that you are dating about your past and see if they understand and if they do you will know if they really do respect you. It is normal to relive past experiences when in situations like that. Talk to him if not about specifics then that you have had bad exs and that you are not comfortable with whatever. If he cares he will understand and be patient. You dictate what you are ok with nobody else no one else. I hope you are well and you learn to live, try not to let his actions doom any relationship you have not all guys are like that. Be happy.

[Upintheair]

sweetheart, NOTHING that happened is your fault.You could never have known that meeting up with him would lead to that! You are worth so much more than what these men have been doing to you. You really should tell someone, an adult, about it because when things like this happen, it really messes with your mind! Please know that people are here for you and that no one deserves to be treated that way