Relapsed...

[FullyAlive]

I was doing really well, I mean I was cutting still quite often but sometimes I managed a week or so. And they were a lot more shallow. I was actually making progress, my doctor told me she was happy I was doing so well.

But I relapsed pretty badly Saturday night after an argument, and since then I've gone straight back to where I was, I'm cutting multiple times a day, and i can't stop. They're getting deep again. I'm going to end up in trouble with people. But I can't help it, nothing is working, distractions were never much good anyway, but now they're all but useless. I don't know what to do, it's only been a few days but its getting out of control again, I need help.

[xktx]

have you told someone its gotten worse again? it might help. x
Just try get out the house a while, try find someone you can trust and know you wont argue with, stay with them for a while, you can help them with their things, so it helps distract you in a way that at home is doesnt. x

[sarahtheweber]

heres an idea that helped me, idk if it'll help you- instead of making a bigger or deeper cut, make more, smaller, shallower cuts, then slowly lessen how many you do. this helped me cut less and have kinda less scars for a while

[FullyAlive]

have you told someone its gotten worse again? it might help. x
Just try get out the house a while, try find someone you can trust and know you wont argue with, stay with them for a while, you can help them with their things, so it helps distract you in a way that at home is doesnt. x

No I've not told them, my counsellor and doctor are both away, although my doctor will know eventually when I see her again she'll see. I haven't been going out, however I still cut in the mornings, the evenings and throughout the night when I am alone ><

heres an idea that helped me, idk if it'll help you- instead of making a bigger or deeper cut, make more, smaller, shallower cuts, then slowly lessen how many you do. this helped me cut less and have kinda less scars for a while

It's a good idea, and I would try it, I usually cut shallow but at the moment I don't feel enough with them :/