I hurt myself help me :'(

[Bi-Girl01]

I hurt myself to stop crying and when i feel like i've done bad, like hurt someone that i care deeply about, it gets me so depressed. The worst i've ever done is whip myself for 1/2, but....i know this is stupid, but it was the closest thing near me.

i grabbed my bikini and just hit myself till my friedn came bak online cos i knew that i'd hurt her (NOTE i know her in real life).

the little plastic clip was wat was hitting me, and after half an hour my whole back was red and sore.

i jsut can;t seem to help myself, it just sems like the right thing to do at the time. I've scrathced myself too, but never cutting. but i-i jsut feeel like if it goes on then i will.

cos sometimes, i look longingly at my kitchen knives and just...dream of the release...-
but then i thinkn of my 5 (a special group of friends to me) and i jsut can;t do it, i know that i cudn;t leacve them behind...

but i dunno wat to do :(

help......

my best friend, i ca;t get her to help me, i've tried but its too much for her...

so i need help...please

[thesphinx]

Please dont cut yourself!
you WILL regret it.
have you tried counseling?
it can really help you get these feelings out and can help you learn how to deal with these feelings.
your not alone and there are alot of people to help you.
please think about!
and by the way ime mike if you ever wanna talk :)

[Bi-Girl01]

i dont wanna cut myself ^,^ ubt u know, i feel tha ti might if this goes on
i've tried counselling but our school guy only comes on tuesdays and fridays, and it was hard enough b4 to get an appointment, plus we always go off track :(
hi mike, i'm jess, ty ^,^ i really appreciate this site now, i always wud bug my friend for help but it jsut put stuff on her n thats not fair, and i dont wanna put it on my new boyfriend either ^,^ thankyou thankyou thankyou

[schrei jess]

Yes, please dont cut yourself. Coming from someone who has been self-harming for over two years, you DO NOT want to start the cycle, I promise you. It is not helpful, and Ive become addicted. Please, there are other things you can do, but please dont cut yourself.

Please PM, or IM, or MSN message me to talk if you EVER need it.
Also read my thread in here, Self-Harm; My Best friend && Worst Enemy - it might be able to show you how bad things have become for me, and how I thought I could control my cutting but now I cant, please just dont do it.

[Terra Rose]

You know the old Pringles slogan: "Once it pops, the fun don't stop?"

Except there's no fun in it, kiddo.

[Everglow]

hey

is there a student advocate person at your school??? if so, talk to that person about your issue....he will help you as best as he can (like give you and your parents resources to help you with your problem)

[Bi-Girl01]

thansk guys, i am getting hlep now ^,^.

my boyfriend is da best and he is helping me get help ^,^