Emptiness

[Spinner]

Hey everyone probably don't care but I wanna vent a little I posted that I can't have a girlfriend because of my age my mom fussed and fights at me all the time but don't notice it we had a fight of me being emo. I come close to cutting myself a lot but don't I gues I'm just chickenshit or something I once grabbed a broken drum stick and kinda scratched my arms and when I drive I wish I would wreck and die and sometimes I ask god to kill me I deserve it I'm alone a lot so I'm depressed for that. Why don't I just cut myself and get it over with?

[Upintheair]

Please, do not cut! Its an addicting situation, that is so hard to get out of! Even when you stop, the urge is always there! It really is not worth anything at all, and while it might make you feel better the second you are cutting, it makes you feel so much worse long term! Dont let your mom fussing and fighting with you cause you to do something so drastic! You are better than that, so do not let her words effect your life. You are your own person, and nothing anyone can ever say will change that

[xdancing_for_rainx]

I'm sorry stuff like that's been happening :/ Fighting with parents is never a good situation... my mother and I don't get along, and are always at ends with each other, so I kinda know what you're talking about. But please, please don't try to take risks or cut yourself :( You may think you can stop cutting at any time, but it doesn't work like that. Yeah- it brings relief... but only for a small amount of time. After a while, it gets sooo hard to quit. It's like a cycle- you feel bad, so you cut; then you feel bad about cutting, and think you deserve worse, so you cut again as punishment.

I've been cutting for three years, and haven't been able to find the will to stop. I've seen two therapists, been put in partial hospitalization, got medications, etc because of my cutting. There's not a single day I go without at least thinking about ways to hurt myself, or about the damage I've already done. It's something I'll probably always have to struggle with... and it's no fun >.< Self-harm may feel good for a moment, but it really doesn't lead to anything good.

Soo, I really do hope you're doing alright. I'm sure there's a way you could let out your emotions besides cutting. Feel free to drop a message if you need to talk or anything, too. Best wishes(:

[sarahtheweber]

I really don't reccomend cutting, but its up to you. It does get addicting... trust me. IF you do cut, PLEASE PLEASE be sure to take care of your cuts well...
Also did this fight start as just a convo?? If not, can you have a quiet discussion with your mom?
BTW. I do care. :p

[Spinner]

Thanks 4 all the replies my friend went through a kinda break up and he's all depressed saying bad things about himself and this reminds me of my problem with depression I care about him a lot I wanna help before myself he is turning to emo and he said he could cut himself but he won't I know him I ain't like that but me I'm depressed because I'm alone and feel like noone cares.

[xktx]

dont cut, its really difficult to break out of it, and it can make life more awkward, just try distracting yourself, and finding the good things in life and doing that more. whatever that might be. xxx