DreamSeeker
August 2nd, 2011, 09:03 PM
I really am not normal. I think I have ocd that in my mind is really bad. I don't know if it's OCD or something else but I really have to have everything perfect and I hate having it this way. Like I got a new phone but then one thing bugged up so I restored it and can't be happy with it yet it's fine. I can't get anything new and enjoy it, I'll look forrward to something then regret it. I hate having this. I can never be happy with anything and it really annoys my family. And I break everything. Everything's fine for everyone else yet in the past week I've broke my laptop, external hdd, phone and such. I hate it
But then to add to this pressure I have my gcse years starting September Which is stressing me out way too much. I can't be happy. Everyday this summer I've spent trying to fix things but end up breaking them more and worrying.
But then there's only 1 thing keeping me sane, love. I've fell in love with the most amazing girl ever yet I can't tell her. It's the only thing I can look forward too. I swear if that fails and I fail my gases then life is not worth living. I know this is a very very stupid post and I'm a stupid kid but I would love to talk to anyone who knows how how bad it is :(
( sorry for any mistakes, typed this up on y iPod while crying halfway through. )
But then to add to this pressure I have my gcse years starting September Which is stressing me out way too much. I can't be happy. Everyday this summer I've spent trying to fix things but end up breaking them more and worrying.
But then there's only 1 thing keeping me sane, love. I've fell in love with the most amazing girl ever yet I can't tell her. It's the only thing I can look forward too. I swear if that fails and I fail my gases then life is not worth living. I know this is a very very stupid post and I'm a stupid kid but I would love to talk to anyone who knows how how bad it is :(
( sorry for any mistakes, typed this up on y iPod while crying halfway through. )