Replaced Cutting With Getting Drunk.

[Njathind]

I'm sorry if this is not in the right forum, if it isnt please move it as soon as you can, I just couldnt find anywhere that it would fit perfectly.

Basically I've been out of the psych ward a couple of months now, and things are going good. The thing is I still have my bad times, and yeah, I really wann cut, but instead I go out, buy beer and spirits and get smashed.

My theory being that no one can tell if you have been drunk recently but people can tell if you have cut. The issue I have is I dont like the hangovers, and the drunken phonecalls to friends, and writing stupid things on facebook.
But I like the fact that my psych wont know that I got drunk, but they will know if I cut.

I'm really tempted too just say fuck it an cut, but, meh. I really dont know, I just need picking up I guess, sorry I asked this.

[flumeendeavors]

Nat, it`s okay. I have been there..hell..i am there right now. I know the feelings. I just recently got out of the psych ward too and i went straight to drugs and alcohol. Although i cant offer you too much advice to move you forward, because i am still stuck in this same rut as you, i can say that im here if you need to talk about anything. Ill be happy to help you out. :) Im sorry i dont have any good advice to give but i just wanted you to know that you`re not alone.

[Clown22]

Getting hammerd is way better than cutting, congrats on improving

[Upintheair]

I would say its better than cutting, so congrats, but it is still risky! People who cut/used to cut (myself included) tend to grow very addictive personalities, where it is very easy to get addicted to things! So very quickly you could become an alcoholic which is something nobody wants. Maybe try to turn to something that isnt bad for your health, like a hobby? A friend of mine quit cutting and kept himself occupied with working on cars!

[DerBear]

Getting hammerd is way better than cutting, congrats on improving

Yes now all your doing is fucking up your kidneys

I would try and come up with a better outlet

How do people see this as better ) replace 1 demon with another

[deadpie]

I'm sorry if this is not in the right forum, if it isnt please move it as soon as you can, I just couldnt find anywhere that it would fit perfectly.

Basically I've been out of the psych ward a couple of months now, and things are going good. The thing is I still have my bad times, and yeah, I really wann cut, but instead I go out, buy beer and spirits and get smashed.

My theory being that no one can tell if you have been drunk recently but people can tell if you have cut. The issue I have is I dont like the hangovers, and the drunken phonecalls to friends, and writing stupid things on facebook.
But I like the fact that my psych wont know that I got drunk, but they will know if I cut.

I'm really tempted too just say fuck it an cut, but, meh. I really dont know, I just need picking up I guess, sorry I asked this.

Don't listen to the people who say it's better to drink yourself to death than to bleed to death. Alcoholism is a form of self abuse. I've witnessed it all. It's not a path you want to take. Yes, the numbing feeling is good, but there's so many other ways you can numb it all out.

Have you ever tried making art? Even if you aren't good at drawing, it doesn't matter. Art can be anything and it's ALWAYS good to someone out there, whether you hate what you do or not.

Art can be a very good way of channeling that numbing feeling you want into something safer.

I don't know much about you, so it's hard to say that many things, but I can say you look like someone with potential.

[Njathind]

Nat, it`s okay. I have been there..hell..i am there right now. I know the feelings. I just recently got out of the psych ward too and i went straight to drugs and alcohol. Although i cant offer you too much advice to move you forward, because i am still stuck in this same rut as you, i can say that im here if you need to talk about anything. Ill be happy to help you out. :) Im sorry i dont have any good advice to give but i just wanted you to know that you`re not alone.

Thanks :hug:
Hopefully we can get out of this rut soon right :whoops:

Getting hammerd is way better than cutting, congrats on improving

Well I really dont think it is, apparently last night I was found naked up on the roof of my house ><
Plus I already have liver and kidney damage so drinking is actually really bad for me. But I just dont want my psych to send me back to the nut house :(

[Kaius]

This is basically how I ended up during my last relapse at the start of this year, I don't think there was a night I was fully sober, but the difference Is I still cut at the same time. Its not a good idea because drinking while not thinking straight will land you into a hell of a lot of trouble, I ended up nearly being thrown back into a psych ward because I took an overdose and started cutting deep enough to do some real damage. I knew exactly what I was doing but I had no control to stop myself, I'm not even sure I wanted to stop myself or would have done any differently if i was sober at the time. The only way you can stop doing that stuff is to not drink, find another way to cope with it that isn't as destructive etc. I know thats easier said than done believe me, its bloody difficult. I put all my anger and feeling into sports when I was able to do it again and other physical means like running, or writing every single bit of emotion down in a place only I and a trusted person/peoples can get to. Its helped me a lot.. Maybe its worth a try?

[Njathind]

This is basically how I ended up during my last relapse at the start of this year, I don't think there was a night I was fully sober, but the difference Is I still cut at the same time. Its not a good idea because drinking while not thinking straight will land you into a hell of a lot of trouble, I ended up nearly being thrown back into a psych ward because I took an overdose and started cutting deep enough to do some real damage. I knew exactly what I was doing but I had no control to stop myself, I'm not even sure I wanted to stop myself or would have done any differently if i was sober at the time. The only way you can stop doing that stuff is to not drink, find another way to cope with it that isn't as destructive etc. I know thats easier said than done believe me, its bloody difficult. I put all my anger and feeling into sports when I was able to do it again and other physical means like running, or writing every single bit of emotion down in a place only I and a trusted person/peoples can get to. Its helped me a lot.. Maybe its worth a try?

I'm not really a sporty person, but I used to love riding my bike, pushing myself so hard that when I stoped my legs were like jelly. So I think I will give this a go. Maybe a punch bag aswell, I used to beat the crap out of the walls in the psych ward but they were solid stone, when I tried it at home I put a hole in the wall (theres a picture covering the hole now :D)

I think ultimatly I need to try and stay away from drink.