I thought I was doing better...

[ShadowGirl]

2 years ago I went into junior high and along with that came a lot of problems and drama. I was totally awkward and an outcast. I had absolutely no friends. I noticed I was heavier than all the popular people at my school, so I decided to eat less to lose weight. I didn't eat lunch or breakfast and I ate as little as I could get away with at dinner. If I was at an event where I had to eat, I'd throw it up later. My mom figured out what was going on. She tried making me eat, but I wouldn't do it. She gave up and took me to a nutritionist.
I've gained weight since then. Now I have problems with binge eating instead. Last night my dad commented about me getting chubby. I laughed it off, but I can't get over it. I looked in the mirror and realized that I'm starting to get fat again! I made myself throw up after 8 months without doing it. I hate looking at myself. All my friends are so much skinnier than me. I want to look like them :(

[Amaryllis]

I understand how you feel. I'm going through it too. It's a natural process after starvation. Your body's afraid it will starve again. You'll put on AT LEAST 10% more weight than your pre-anorexia weight. Don't worry. It WILL regulate. Check out my thread: it's a guide. :) Don't throw up. It will only make it worse.

http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=110035

Love,
Faith and Trust

[ShadowGirl]

Thanks, the thread helped a lot!

[Amaryllis]

Thanks, the thread helped a lot!

No problem. Keep going. You'll be okay.

Love,
Faith and Trust

[SWMG]

Look when you start eating-not eating its the worst you can do because it will slow down your metabolism, so try to eat in a certain pattern like 5 small meals or 3 large meals a day. But be happy with who YOU are