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dontcare97
August 1st, 2011, 03:49 PM
I started throwing up when I was about eight. I was young ans no one really said stop eating. I was popular and had lots of friends so I wasn't really bullied at that age.I did at least two different sports a year since kindergarten but still, i would look at my best friend, see how thin she was and pick at my fat.
I hated it. But I love food. So I reasoned that throwing up will still get the glorious taste without the weight. I didn't do it all the time, just one every other week or so. I was like a small boost that made me fell better.

Then my dad died when i was ten. My mother diagnosed with kidney cancer the with in six months. People got meaner in the bigger school. I was picked on by everyone with only three really good friends. I didn't tell them anything. I burned myself and drew pictures of my killing people. i stabbed myself with safty pins to break my blood veins. I tried to cut myself but i had a fear of death. I didn't want to go to hell.

By seventh grade I was throwing up at least once every other day. i tried to eat one meal at dinner and almost nothing the rest of the day. I lunch I hide out in bathrooms and the library reading ans waiting. The only person that really knew me was one of my guidance counselors, Ms. Northey. She was the best.

i changed schools and went on weight watchers. I still throw up. My friends forced me to stop or they'd tell my mom. I sometimes do it at home for comfort.It relaxes me and makes me feel light. No one knows I still do it.

Upintheair
August 1st, 2011, 04:22 PM
wow sweetie, you really need to talk to people about this. It sounds like your really depressed and your eating disorder can get alot worse, trust me. You should really tell your mom. I kno its going to be hard and your scared, but getting help before the problem worsens is really important