Nothings helping, If anything im getting worse

[RakshaMalayka]

Im honestly trying, its just so hard. The longest Ive ever made it without cutting, burning, or beating myself was the 2 weeks i had my boyfriend, and that was because i couldnt stand seeing him cut again (Does that make me a hypocrit?). But now i think instead of getting better, its getting worse. My back is completely covered, and my ribs and thighs are always covered in bruises. Ive tried the rubberband on my wrist and i just ended up with a badly bruised wrist. Everytime i start getting better, something happens. It just seems like nothing is helping. I jus dont know what to do anymore......

[xktx]

i think the only thing now, is either to have you boyfriend round more often or go to see someone. :/ sorry to have to tell you. x