He Hates Me

[Unlucky_Leprechaun]

I am not much of a poet and this does not rhyme. It is just my thoughts and feeling that I have. He was a "special" someone I called a friend... he knows who he is and I wont go there in here. (He may read it and he may not..I'm not sure). There is no need for anyone to comment..just read and move on so I don't cause more hurt and pain.


He hates Me

He hates me…not even a “Hi” I sit and wonder why.
No answers, no claim and nothing short of pain
Is it me? Is it him? Who knows the truth?
He wanted space is what he said, so I attempt to honor his wish
He says it is him…but I often wonder that the pain I instill on others has come up again
What I say now is what did I do? Attempting to get close to share a thought or two
I have done it again, though not knowing what…Is there no pain to me causing it?
I will sit and I will wait… for how long… I don’t just know yet
I wanted a friend...nothing more…Someone to share thoughts and dreams with that is all
I opened my heart and soul and for what do I get shutout forever without even a click
Yet, push away push away I did it again for now I am convinced that forever it is me
I should have known that this would happen so stupid of me to get all wrapped up in
I should end it all; right here and now and rid the world of my lost soul
I will grant him his space that he has requested; realizing now how I must have hurt him?
He deserves more…much better than I; for I would just hurt him more inside
Was it a dream? Was it a lie? Time will tell as I struggle to get by
School will start and soon memories will fade…into the abyss that I call my soul
I wish him luck and want him no harm…just to move on and find his great cause
He will forget as all of them do and the thing that I call friendship will slip away with you
The trust that I had; the dreams that I shared will all go back inside where they belong for no one will ever get there again—the places that I opened and let him in will shut down forever as the trust that I have lost will now reside inside where it should have stayed from the beginning.
All he had to say is “Hey man I moved on” at least that is closure in some little bit.
I would not understand it but at least it is fair to at least say Good Bye in some way

For He hates me…not even a “Hi” I sit and wonder why….

[prob1996]

Wow, very moving. I can relate to it very much. It's the wondering why that makes it so difficult. So often we never get an answer and that's what seems to hurt the most. To me anyway.

[CryWolf]

And you said you couldn't write.....:)

I'm really sorry.

[Comatose]

I can relate, somewhat... Though, may be a totally different story with me & a guy I know... or knew.... don't even know what it should be atm. :/ *hugs*

[Bradworth]

Wow, very moving. I can relate to it very much. It's the wondering why that makes it so difficult. So often we never get an answer and that's what seems to hurt the most. To me anyway.

I couldn't have put it better myself.

[AltoVaughn]

Falling in love with your best friend is pretty Miserable. Still in that situation now.

[OptimusPrime]

Such a really good poem. Great work!

[Unlucky_Leprechaun]

All,
Thanks for the support it is not going unnoticed. Things are looking up and days are becoming brighter...seems more good days than bad lately...who knows once life gets straightened out, maybe I can as well. Thanks again!