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July 29th, 2011, 06:26 PM
Hi, I'm an 18 year old male, and I have a major confusion with my sexuality. I know the common cliche responses I would get is that my hormones are getting mixed up and making me confused, but that has been going on for a while now.
I don't know if I'm straight anymore. I'll get turned on by girls and blush in front of them and my heart beats faster.
But almost the same thing applies to a guy.
When I see a good-looking guy with nice arms and a nice body, I just want to like hug him or just have imaginations of jumping him or something. I get two different emotions at the same time. I also feel jealously towards that person because he is good-looking and that he has nice arms and a nice body, feeling like I want to be like him too. (because it attracts me?) It just turns me on.
I'm usually a touchy-feely person with my friends, especially to my close guy friends.
I also get the feeling that, I want a big brother, or have a guy friend that's just caring and very sentimental. Because usually the same-sex friends understand each other the best.
I get all these mixed feelings, and in some parts, I feel guilty. But maybe it could just because I get "lonely" at some times. I mean, I have friends and best friends, but I just don't have that friend that is distinct and true. (if you guys know what I mean) I'm not lonely, I'm emotionally lonely, but it just feels like it has to be a guy friend that could fill up that emotional loneliness.
Anybody have a clue what I'm going through?
I don't know if I'm straight anymore. I'll get turned on by girls and blush in front of them and my heart beats faster.
But almost the same thing applies to a guy.
When I see a good-looking guy with nice arms and a nice body, I just want to like hug him or just have imaginations of jumping him or something. I get two different emotions at the same time. I also feel jealously towards that person because he is good-looking and that he has nice arms and a nice body, feeling like I want to be like him too. (because it attracts me?) It just turns me on.
I'm usually a touchy-feely person with my friends, especially to my close guy friends.
I also get the feeling that, I want a big brother, or have a guy friend that's just caring and very sentimental. Because usually the same-sex friends understand each other the best.
I get all these mixed feelings, and in some parts, I feel guilty. But maybe it could just because I get "lonely" at some times. I mean, I have friends and best friends, but I just don't have that friend that is distinct and true. (if you guys know what I mean) I'm not lonely, I'm emotionally lonely, but it just feels like it has to be a guy friend that could fill up that emotional loneliness.
Anybody have a clue what I'm going through?