Suffocate.

[LifeisLife]

I just tried to suffocate myself. I almost made it, I passed out and thought I was finally relieved but then I woke up and felt miserable. The sad thing is, I didn't even finish it after that. I didn't keep trying. I don't even have the guts to do it.

[TheMatrix]

Why did you do that, if I may ask?

[flumeendeavors]

Please dont do that. It wont help anything. Please tell me what made you want to in the first place? That would help me help you in a better way.

[LifeisLife]

Since April, a girl and me have been close. On June 19th, we had a huge fight and haven't talked since then, except for a few times, but those conversations weren't great either. :l She's been on my mind literally 24/7, I dream about her, she's ALWAYS on my mind during the day and sometimes I even see her face sticked to other people's bodies! :/ I had nobody to talk to, I just found out some other horrible things that she did and my family and I were having a huge fight. Everybody is against me. I didn't have anyone to talk to, didn't have anywhere/anyone to turn to and couldn't stand it anymore. :/

[Magenta]

Pim, people do terrible things. However, killing yourself is not the answer. You are not responsible for her choices. She is and she is going to have to deal with the fact that she hurt you. If this is okay with her, well, reality is that obviously she was not as great as it seemed. (Just realized I didn't phrase any of that too well... *facepalm* I hope you see my point.)

Sometimes the world appears to have an agenda against you. But I can guarantee that there will always be someone to talk to. If you ever want to, you can PM me whenever/any other contact info on my profile. No one wants to see you kill yourself and I, for one, are glad to see you're still here.

:hug3:

[flumeendeavors]

I agree with Nathuagyn. People do horrible things. You will never get rid of those people by killing yourself because you know what? By killing yourself...it will do nothing. Those mean people who are against you and that dont like you and make fun of you...they'll still be around. They will still be around to torture whatever other person they choose. If you stay alive and fight it then atleast there will be a chance of them stopping eventually because you never gave up. Giving up is not the thing to do. It will show them that they are good at what they do and that they can do it to other people as well. Dont give up my friend. I know what it's like to be depressed and want to die but it will do absolutely no good for anybody. Hang in there. :)

[LifeisLife]

I don't care if they're still around, if I'm not, they can't hurt me.

[Upintheair]

yea but if you killed yourself, you would give them the satisfaction of knowing they won and that definitely isnt the route you would want to take

[flumeendeavors]

Yes but you know what? The pain that you felt towards the situation with this girl is going to be thrown onto your family. Your family will feel the same amount of pain over you choosing to die. Nobody wants you to die, although at times you doubt that fact. You are so much more than what is happening to you right now. Just think...in a few years you'll be somewhere else doing something with your life. We all have a purpose in this life in my opinion and sometimes that purpose is simply to use your life experiences, good or bad, to help others. I know that right now it seems like there's no hope and you feel like a loser but death isnt an option here. Remember that there is always something important to do in life and sometimes you just need to go searching for it. What grade are you in?

I can tell you that i have dealt with plenty of heartbreak in my life. Ive dealt with heartbreak from my family as well as heartbreak from friends and relationships. It sucks. It hurts a lot. At one point half a year ago i tried to kill myself every single day and it never worked but i cause my mom so much pain. I tried it. But looking back on the situation that made me want to die now makes me feel good because i beat it. I actually managed to get over it and yes, i still think about that pain sometimes and i still take some time to absorb the emotions and pain again but i feel the pain, i think long and hard and i get over it again. A lot of the pains in life wont ever dissappear but its up to you to make those pains into a good experience. It is possible for you to live happily, it just takes work to accomplish that. Again, if you need advice ever i will help you out. Hang in there please, for me.

[LifeisLife]

I know that my family would feel horrible, but they already make me feel horrible now! I wish they would know how badly they hurt me EVERY day. They have 0 respect for me. I hope that if I do kill myself, that they feel bad for the rest of their lives.

[Skyhawk]

Pim, this isn't the way to go, there are people who love and care about you, maybe not your family, but what about your friends?? :/

[TheMatrix]

I hope that if I do kill myself, that they feel bad for the rest of their lives.
I'm afraid they won't.
In fact, they might just feel as if it was "a job well done".

So you'll be helping nobody but them if you kill yourself.

[flumeendeavors]

I know you say that now, but believe me...you dont want them feeling like shit because you did something like kill yourself. Also, if you feel as though they dont treat you well then talk to them about it and if you dont feel comfortable with doing it alone with them, then you can call in a therapist to help you. You are so much better than you believe you can be. Dont pass up this chance to make yourself a better person with a better life.

[LifeisLife]

I hope on vacation that my family and I are just going to get along on vacation. I'm leaving in 2 or 3 hours to Sri Lanka and the Maldives for 3 weeks.

Pim, this isn't the way to go, there are people who love and care about you, maybe not your family, but what about your friends?? :/ I only have 1 friend that I can share things with, and he's barely ever online, and it's vacation so he's in Denmark or something....

[TheMatrix]

I hope on vacation that my family and I are just going to get along on vacation. I'm leaving in 2 or 3 hours to Sri Lanka and the Maldives for 3 weeks.
I hope you have fun! :)

I only have 1 friend that I can share things with, and he's barely ever online, and it's vacation so he's in Denmark or something....
I am sad to hear that. You'll find somebody fun someday. I know it.
And besides, there's always us! :)

[DoctorWho]

Don't kill yourself for something someone else did

[flumeendeavors]

Good. I think a little break will do you some serious good. Have a great vacation and just please stay strong. Maybe this vacation will be a good opportunity for you to talk to your family about the pain you`re feeling. :)

[LongShot157]

well i have to say im glad you failed, but its almost impossible to suffocate yourself. there are ways but DO NOT DO IT AGAIN you have friends and loved ones who care about you man

[xktx]

you'll make them feel like they've won, they'll just go push someone else off the edge. There are people in this life which may seem like they hate you, but actually they don't. x
The reason why you only passed out when you strangled yourself, cos there are reflexes in our body which stop us (as much as possible) from killing ourselves. x

[DJZS]

I will always be here for you. All my contact info is on my profile. I will always care about you.

[canyon]

I know that my family would feel horrible, but they already make me feel horrible now! I wish they would know how badly they hurt me EVERY day. They have 0 respect for me. I hope that if I do kill myself, that they feel bad for the rest of their lives.

Why don't you tell them then? You're telling me that killing yourself is a better option to you than to talk to your family? I mean I know that its hard to talk to your family about personal things going on, but you can't tell me that you would rather kill yourself than just talk to them and tell them how they make you feel..

If nothing else, stop living for everyone else and live for you. Don't worry about how they feel about you or what anyone else thinks for that matter. It's your life, and you shouldn't have to worry about pleasing everyone else. You'll just end up unhappy forever. When they make you mad or sad or angry, think about something else. I know it's hard to do, I know, but just think about your future. Think about what you want to do and where you want to go, and focus on that. Don't let the negative emotions take away from the positive ones.

[Riotboy]

Dude dont kill your self.
its fucked up life is shit at some points 95% for me buy the 5% i rember
people put me through shit. i WAS just like you then i ate and got fat and im loosing the kilograms at the moment
people love you
people hate you
people agree with you
people disagree with you
you make the right decision/wrong one
were all fucked either way.