Temptation is strong.

[flumeendeavors]

So let me tell you my story first.

About a year and a half ago i was diagnosed with major depression and i started cutting myself very often. After a couple of months i had develloped anorexia and soon after, bulimia as well. Half a year ago i got admitted to the psychiatric ward in my hospital for one month. It could've been a lot longer but i fought every single day and i ended up getting kicked out. Isnt that ridiculous? I, a person with mental health issues got kicked out of a mental hospital for being too emotional.
Anyways so i kept cutting after i got out but ive been clean for 4 months now and i am so tempted to cut again. I need help but i feel like nobody's going to believe me again. Everyone i care about has either pushed themselves away, or they have stuck around but told me i wasnt trying hard enough to get better.
Im ready to give in again.

[Hopegirl]

This is the second tim em e writing a reply because i lost my internet connection and it deleted the other one..sucks :( Anyways..i really know what your going thorugh with the temptation of the cutting, and btw well done on the 4 months clean :D its really good :D I understand what your feeling when you say your scared no ones going to believe you and that you do need help :( Anyhows back to the temptation..I went a month without cutting, i then started again and gave up because i beat myself up so much about cutting again that i cut more..vicious cycle :'( You really dont want that but if you do cut always know that you've made it this far, its not the end of the world ,there is no point being angry with yourself for cutting, it might just lead to more :/ Just try to get back on track and then next time you might reach a 6 months mark for not cutting before getting the urge to n yes you might cut again but everytime you are making progress :) If you feel you friends/family arents helping you then why not try councilling ? If your like me and not too keen on councillors then as silly as this sounds, try making new friends with people who know how you feel ? I know for certain that people on these forums have helped me more than any councilling i've ever done xD Im sorry if im not much help :/ However im always willing to listen to any problems, and well done on the 4 months keep it up, and if you cant,...never give up :D x