Hormones? Weirdo?

[WeirdThinkingTeen]

Hello I am 15 and late entering puberty (haha)

I came home one evening and started (somehow) having doubts over my sexuality, before this I classed myself as a normal heterosexual, but the thoughts put doubts in my mind. I have had a girlfriend though not serious but I have also being rejected by 5 other girls and I have lost a bit of faith and havent liked a girl properly in a while.

I also used to watch gay porn only for a week, stopping after a week because I felt ashamed, I also masturbated over a guy whilst anally playing but stopped after like the fifth time cos again felt so ashamed and guilty. And now I just watch lesbian porn.

I also try and get erections frequently over girls, works 99% but I dont get why I do this? Also I never try and get boner over guys for fear of more anxiety. I also doubt my emotional attraction to girls, I think I do my heads all over.

I do not want to be gay or bisexual, it just doesnt appeal to me, I have and always wanted to be straight, ive got no proof I am gay or bi, my mind is just eating me inside. I jjust wanted to ask is any of this normal and hormonal? Does every teen get it or am I weird? Sorry for long post just felt I should put down what I feel

[Giles]

I can understand why you want to be straight and your attempts at reassuring yourself that you are and there's every chance that you are straight but just having some doubts, as you've said. It's probable that you try to get erections over girls to prove to yourself that you can and that you're straight. I'd say that feelings like this are completely normal and a lot of teens question their sexuality, a lot of which are straight, either way though (gay, bi or straight) you're still normal.

You are also right in saying that your feelings could be attributed to the hormonal side of puberty which could mess with your head and make you think things/do things that you wouldn't normally do. If this is the case then you've nothing to worry about you may well just be having different thoughts than you're used to and are still straight.

[WeirdThinkingTeen]

Thankyou and I think that is why I try to get erections, I do think Im still straight I just hate these doubts, I hope its hormones and I hope Im not the only teen who gets these thoughts

[Giles]

Thankyou and I think that is why I try to get erections, I do think Im still straight I just hate these doubts, I hope its hormones and I hope Im not the only teen who gets these thoughts

I also hope that you're right because it's obvious that's what you want but you should also accept that being bi/gay is not bad either.

[WeirdThinkingTeen]

I know but I just want my mind to go back to normal how I was before that day I came home, I used to enjoy my life as well

[WeirdThinkingTeen]

Can anyone else answer my question?:( Im still worrying and its took over my life. Also ive just tried to get an erection and I failed, could I just not be horny?

[TtotheC]

Maybe you should look up HOCD, that's the stage where i'm at right now. You seem obsessive about it, this can be a real bitch. I'm struggling with it right now! I'm not saying you've got the same, and DON'T, i repeat DON'T immediately think you've got it too! If it's ruling your life, it's beyond your power and you may need a psychologist, look for options.

Try to let it go, put a stop to your thoughts, that's the best you can do, i know it's hard, trust me i do. Don't test yourself over and over, and nobody here can tell you what you are, i can just tell you that testing yourself isn't going to work if you're in a stage of paranoia and worrying. Relax, take a bath, play a game, read a good book, that's the best you can do, look for distraction. ;)

[WeirdThinkingTeen]

I do try and take my mind it off, I dont think about it sometimes but then it just pops back into my head and I worry again, I try and think about other things but when Im alone its hell I just concentrate on it all time if alone, when Im with my friends I dont worry as much

[LoginLeo]

My opinion is that it's perfectly normal.
Almost every guy goes through that (me too), and that's ok...
Don't be worried about it, just enjoy what makes you feel good...
You - are yourself, and whoever you are - straight, gay, bi, or whatever - accept yourself, cuz that's u...
Good luck :)

[WeirdThinkingTeen]

I just want it to end, I dont believe every guy goes through this

[LoginLeo]

I just want it to end, I dont believe every guy goes through this

Well, considering the fact that u can't do anything to make it stop (Cuz it's puberty and it's natural) i advise u just to live with it...
and check out some other threads on that forum, u will see that almost everyone here goes through that thing..
so, good luck.. :)

[WeirdThinkingTeen]

Ok thanks so its normal for a teen lad?

[LoginLeo]

Ok thanks so its normal for a teen lad?
Yup... don't be worried, it's perfectly normal!
If u want to, pm me or somethin' :)

[WeirdThinkingTeen]

ok thanks, glad someone can actually clear this up for me and I will do:) when I worry again

[LoginLeo]

ok thanks, glad someone can actually clear this up for me and I will do:) when I worry again

Yeah sure man, glad i helped.. :)