Life is But a Dream

[DemonicPanda]

Well i been going on this for like 6 months now, i keep on thing about suicide and on how ways to kill my self from cutting my vain or slitting my throat. i been cutting over 3 years now and it does not look like it will stop, i just feel like cutting will salve my problems but it just make more of them but it does not stop it. I like the feeling of the blade going in to my skin, the feeling of something so beautiful as happiness be destroyed so easily. As i type this now i am cutting. I really dont know why i am typing this, maybe its just to know i am not alone on this. That you have to cut to make it through the day or that you think about ending it be for you go to bed and you cut to keep the thoughts at bay for just the night. It feels pretty good to get some of this out. Thanks for reading this. If you have anything to say feel free.

Love Dpan

[DismaliciouSx]

Man believe me I know what it is like to feel the need to cut just so you can make it through the night, and all the time you believe it will make everything better but then you wake up in the morning and realize what you have done. I can say this, I do and always have thought of suicide and even attempted it three times, needless to say you feel like an idiot sitting in the hospital after, anyways, have you tried talking to your parents or any adult for that matter? if you haven't I would try telling your parents, sure it seems bad but do it at a lax time and when you're ready but keep in mind it is urgent ya know? You know that cutting isn't helping which is good but now you got to try and stop, have you tried any coping methods? This site has a great thread about coping methods.
If you ever need to talk I'm here, feel free to add me if you like.

[DemonicPanda]

Well my Brother takes care of me and he know i did it but he thinks i stop and he wanted me to go get help and talk to a professional but i keept telling him i was ok and dont need it, so he does not have to worrie about me but that kinda seemed like a bad idea. i just have no idea how to go about he hole opening up thing. i am just scared of being judged

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Im like this. Im constantly day dreaming about suicide,and how I would kill myself. I cant do anything for my pain but cut and burn,in which causes more bull sh*t,but I cant seem to ever stop long term. At one point I was starting to think it was impossible,and I should just completely end this horrible torcher. But slowly,my thoughts and twisted dreams are becoming less and less,I dont have to cut everyday,which is big for me,because I used to cut almost ever two hours. Find another outlit for ur pain. Paint,write,draw,blast music,something that lets u vent negative emotions. Are u talking to anyone about this,like a therapist?? It might help. I know when I went to one,it would help.

[DJZS]

Im always here if you'd like help or you want to talk. My contact info is on my profile.

[xktx]

have you got a friend who's in the same situation ... I found that helps. Although I still cut, the suicide thoughts are gone, and I dont cut as badly ... If unfortunately, you dont have a friend like that, try talking to someone, anyone you can trust.. it helps. Promise. They may be worried and fuss over you for a while ... and that is annoying, but they do start to understand and try and help you without pushing you into anything .. and if you do its just because theyre worried about you. x
And we're always here for you :) and you should know ... you are never alone. x