Back again, so sorry

[NormanViking]

Hello, I am a lad of 15 and I am a late bloomer.
Hi again, this is what I put

Over the past 10 weeks I have had conflicting thoughts over where my loyalties lie, am I gay/striaght/bi.

I have ALWAYS liked girls and still find them attractive and even had a girlfriend. But these thoughts are making me feel like I don't anymore, I do not want to be gay or even bi (sorry) it just doesn't appeal to me.

I have also being questioning my emotional attraction to girls e.g. whether I will get married to a girl or if I could see myself in a relationship with a girl. I used to be very close to a girl, but she kind of hurt me and don't think I ever got over it, we were bestmates and I thought it might lead to something more, but she told me I was too clingy and backed away. I have also had around 6 rejections from girls and I wondered if this could have altered how I feel, because of my constant rejection I daren't ask any other girl out

I used to watch gay porn but I don't anymore because afterwards I would feel ashamed, I know only watch lesbian porn (weird or not?)

The thoughts of me being gay/bi are making me feel depressed as I really don't want to be and it's eating my mind, it is the only thing on it, it's a constant worry in my head. Hormones or not?

Please help!

[nameless12]

well, you should just keep on trying asking girls out, dont give up ;)
and as for the gay/bi thing, dont worry about it. you cant choose who you are but if you ever are one of those two, dont get depressed and just love who you are :)

i didnt want to like guys too at fisrt, but then i got more confident with the idea on my head, and now im bi and im happy about it :D

[NormanViking]

I am scared that I will not get feelings for another girl :( I hate this period of my life

[nameless12]

i also had fear, but dont fear it. you will find someone :) there is ALWAYS someone for you ;) and this period is just the start so just be pacient and wait for the good stuff :P

[Kujiro]

Setbacks are especially common at our age, pretty much what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.
I am quite sure the mixed emotions you are in, are a result of these relationship setbacks.

When you are feeling really down and out, it's a good time to do reflections and using them to improve yourself.
It's normal such things will cause yourself to question your sexuality, but do not worry, it's a normal state of depression.
It's entirely up to you to walk out of that cave and start anew.

In general, time and courage will heal wounds and matters of the heart.

[NormanViking]

So you think Im still straight? I still do I just hate these doubts

[Kujiro]

So you think Im still straight? I still do I just hate these doubts

I believe you are as straight as ruler for that matter. :)
It's not wise to let trivial love matters, give you doubts about your sexuality.

[NormanViking]

Haha thanks I will still not be convinced in an hour haha and btw I always try and get erections over girls, it works but I dont know why I do it

[NormanViking]

I also used to masturbate and thought of a guy I knew, I only did this for about a week but I felt so guilty afterwards that I didnt do it anymore, I also did anal play but again stopped cos of my guilt, I just want to be how I was its horrible, I used to like my life

[TtotheC]

I also used to masturbate and thought of a guy I knew, I only did this for about a week but I felt so guilty afterwards that I didnt do it anymore, I also did anal play but again stopped cos of my guilt, I just want to be how I was its horrible, I used to like my life

I masturbated over i guy i knew this one time too yeah, same guilt feelings. It's just all psychological, cus you don't really WANT to, in the end. It's just a hot and naughty thought, something else you know?;)

Oh and uhh, pleasuring yourself anally is not gay at all. A lot of straight guys like masturbating anally, even married, grown men do it, and even ask to be pleasured by strapons by their wifes. Not weird at all. It would only be wrong if during that they'd be thinking about a guy :P.

[NormanViking]

I did think about a guy whilst anal playing but again stopped cos I felt so guilty I jusr want my life back to normal

[NormanViking]

Can anyone else help? I actually hate my life atm

[ExhibitG]

Hello, I am a lad of 15 and I am a late bloomer.
Hi again, this is what I put

Over the past 10 weeks I have had conflicting thoughts over where my loyalties lie, am I gay/striaght/bi.

I have ALWAYS liked girls and still find them attractive and even had a girlfriend. But these thoughts are making me feel like I don't anymore, I do not want to be gay or even bi (sorry) it just doesn't appeal to me.

I have also being questioning my emotional attraction to girls e.g. whether I will get married to a girl or if I could see myself in a relationship with a girl. I used to be very close to a girl, but she kind of hurt me and don't think I ever got over it, we were bestmates and I thought it might lead to something more, but she told me I was too clingy and backed away. I have also had around 6 rejections from girls and I wondered if this could have altered how I feel, because of my constant rejection I daren't ask any other girl out

I used to watch gay porn but I don't anymore because afterwards I would feel ashamed, I know only watch lesbian porn (weird or not?)

The thoughts of me being gay/bi are making me feel depressed as I really don't want to be and it's eating my mind, it is the only thing on it, it's a constant worry in my head. Hormones or not?

Please help!

we actually have a ton in common. i worry about my sexuality a lot too and whether or not i'll fall in love with another girl. so hopefully you now know you aren't alone. i try not to think about it, honestly. i'm always keeping myself occupied in any way. but yeah it does kind of suck. if i were to offer advice, i'd just say to not let it get the best of you. live your life and you'll find out on your own eventually.

[Skyhawk]

y0 NormanViking, from what I have read so far you appear to be straight as a straightedge, and just because a girl hurt you doesn't determine your sexuality. I'm not doctor or anything, but it could be that you are undergoing a minor depression.

Don't worry about the future, you are living in the present, not the past nor the future. :P

I've been asked out by a couple of girls and I'm as straight as a roundabout hehe.

Keep trying. ;)

[Upintheair]

i agree with everyone above! rejection hurts really bad and it messes with your mind alot. You are a 15 year old, which is one of the most confusing ages of life. Dont worry about your sexuality because in years to come, you will realize what your sexuality actually is. you have plenty of time to realize it! as for watching lesbian porn, haha all i can say is that you are a guy. And guys who like girls are typically very turned on by watching two girls together which happens to be another sign that i think your straight!

[NormanViking]

thanks a lot rogue, exhibitg and upintheair, nice to know people know what their saying :) just i'm afraid of liking another girl for fear of rejecction again

[NormanViking]

You know that Chris1995 guy? It looks as if he has HOCD and hes got the same problem as me? Help me cos I don't want to be gay or bi still and I don't think its the relationship setbacks becuase surely it would have ended now and I could like another girl? I hate this part of my life, just wish I could fast forward 10 years of my life