I want to die.

[tashbash3]

So i've not been on VT in a long while, so i'll update you with what's been happening so far.
Basically i've been very suicidal the past few weeks and i have overdosed and tried to strangle myself, but i'm such a failure, i can't even kill myself.
I just don't want to be here anymore. I want to be with my mum (she commited suicide three years ago), i miss her so much it's unreal, and i can't deal with this anymore.


If you want to talk to me any place else than here, here is my tumblr: http://ladderstothe-stars.tumblr.com/

[FearsomeEnder]

I can see where you are upset but suicide is never the answer do things to get your mind off of suicide Take a walk do something relaxing.

[ExhibitG]

i mean, i don't have any experience on this. but i'd feel like a terrible person if i saw this thread and passed by. i think you should just live your life. i was depressed a few years ago for quite some time, but i always thought that there is nothing in life worth ending it for. so try and have that perspective. stay strong and good luck.

[flumeendeavors]

Well i have dealt with your situation plenty of times in my life with myself and my friends. I can say that i know what you're feeling but you know what? Killing yourself will do nothing good. Sure, you'll be with your mum again but you know that pain that you feel everyday about your mom killing herself? Well that unbearable pain will be passed on to the rest of the people who care about you in life. If you can make it out of this time alive then you will feel unbeatable. I remember the first day that i had someone important to me tell me exactly what im telling you now ... i had never felt better. I realized that pain is a human emotion that will never dissappear but it will get better with time. My dad tried to kill himself when i was younger and to this day i still feel pain but it has been dulled with time and whenever i think of him now i feel so happy that he never followed through with it. I think that whenever you think of your mum you need to try to calm your sadness and hurt and you need to send her a prayer or a thought and tell her that you still think about her and that you will see her again one day when it's your time. Your time will come naturally so dont do it now. If you need to talk more you can message me but you know that killing yourself will do no good. Do you realize how sad you will make your mom if you follow her steps and kill yourself too? I know that life gets so hard sometimes and you cant bear to even think about carrying on but you need to force yourself through that time. It takes a lot of work but you are a special part of this world and i know you are sitting there thinking that what im saying right now is BS but it's not. You are special to someone, somewhere in this world. Im one of them. I love you, even though ive never met you because i think that someone who has as much pain as you do needs to be loved a little more. Listen to this: Hold On by Good Charlotte. It helped me through some tough times. But please dont do anything to yourself. It wont do anything positive and your mom wont be proud to see you because you killed yourself just to see her. Remember...message me if you need help. Im here.