soo frustrating!

[love is louder]

so my beat friends knows im a cutter so and im getting sick of hiding it so i figure if she knows then it would be alright to leave it uncovered.
She was not happy about it. says that im not getting better so she will have to do something about it. she knows i do it so i dont get why shes being like that

its like she knows i do it and i know she knows i do it but its still this big taboo subject that is not supposed to be mentioned let alone saw. so what am i supposed to do? keep hiding it when we both know its happening and pretend it doesnt exist?

i really dont know what she wants from me?
any one know what im talking about

[Njathind]

Well, I dont think you should show open wounds, or bandaged & stiched wounds, but if your feeling confident enough around her, then show your scars, but if it bothers her then I would think about talking things through with her and see what you guys can do about showing your scars.

But your friend is kinda right ya know, you should really speak to someone about this, its really not healthy, and if you can stop cutting then, you can do anything. I hope this helps

:hug:

[love is louder]

i know that i shouldn't but shes fine with seeing almost healed ones
thing is im just sick of having to hide myself and she lives with me and sleeps in my bed so i dont have chance to just be on my own and not have to hide.
i think thats just what it is.
i am in therapy for it but my therapists on holiday so im a little stuck at the moment lol

i am trying to talk to her about it but she doesnt understand and she just keeps shooting me down and frustrates me because she cant understand. i think thats all im pissed about and i just needed a little rant.

thanks for the reply though :) it did help

[Njathind]

No problem hun :hug:
But at the end of the day, if she lives with you then you should be able to show your scars in your own house. Unless she is really grossed out by it, then there is no reason why you should have to cover up.

[Becka]

I do kno wat you mean. My friend knows I cut (she even cuts herself). But when I cut she threatens to turn me in to mental health (Even though she cuts several times a day, and I cut about once a week).

[Becka]

Oh by the way, I just want you to kno that I made a blogging site for people who want to blog about anything! If you want to blog about what you are going through then go to this website http://bloggers-like-me.webs.com

The only member there now is me.

[XxMurderedKissesxX]

Sometimes knowing,and seeing are to different things. So maybe it just upset her and that shes worried about it getting extremely dangerous. It sounds like she cares and wants u to stop,so it could be,that if ur willing to leave them un covered ur just excepting it,and thats bothering her.

[love is louder]

No problem hun :hug:
But at the end of the day, if she lives with you then you should be able to show your scars in your own house.
This is how i feel. im getting sick of having to hide it from everyone it just gets too much and now i cant even relax in my own room.

Oh by the way, I just want you to kno that I made a blogging site for people who want to blog about anything! If you want to blog about what you are going through then go to this website http://bloggers-like-me.webs.com
ill check it out soon when i have time.:)

Sometimes knowing,and seeing are to different things.
this is exactly what i thought but she wont admit it, she wants me to open up to her about it all when she cant do it for me.

[xktx]

its a big thing to learn, that the person your living with hurtes him/herself. She might be finding it difficult to deal with, she wants you to know that shes there for you, but shes not so sure about facing up to the real problem, she'll slowly understand, not fully, but enough to accept it. Try talking to her again, tell her exactly how you feel. She might change, if she doesnt you really need to work out why, your own home shouldnt be a place you need to hide in. xxx (sorry if its not much help)

[love is louder]

she decided she wanted to be there for me so i thought id give it a try as it couldnt hurt if she already knows about it.
she asked me to text her and tell her when i wanted to do it so i agreed to tell her after i did it to talk about it.
this happened twice until i didnt want to go swimming and she blew up so i asked her not to make a big deal out of it then got a hand full of abusive texts like " i will make a fucking big deal out of it because at the end of the day it aint fucking normal" and a lot of words to that effect that are less appropriate to post on here
so i told her to leave me alone and start pretending she didnt know again
PROBLEM SOLVED!!!