Came out as gay, but is now confused..

[naruus]

Hello, last december, I came out as gay, I was happy, got a boyfriend, fell in love, serious love. One day though, I thought of him fucking a girl, it made me climax very quick. I took no real notice but since then the thought of some guys fucking girls makes me hard, and If I masturbate I can climax, I enjoy gay porn and can climax to that also, I have never had sex with a girl (and I dont really want too.) but no matter what, I cant shake the feeling. I dont really like the fact I may be bi because then I'll have to come out as bi, and I'll feel as if I've betrayed some people. At one point I couldn't even masturbate to straight porn without thinking of guys (at which point would make me climax.)

Does anyone else have a similar problem or can share some help..

Thanks

[Babobobo]

You're fine. a lot of gay guys watch straight porn just for the guys, because there's significant ideas that straight guys are somehow more enjoyable than gay guys. Perhaps you're just attracted to a higher form of masculinity.

[CarolinaDude]

Agree with the guy above. And you do seem fine. I've also heard that some people just go through "phases" during puberty and sexual identification where their initial interests and attractions and change without sign or notice. That's why it may not be the brightest idea to come out when you're say.. 13 or 14 because you could change according to your hormones and whatnot. Puberty ends at around 18-21 (I'm not too sure). However, most people don't do a complete 180-degree turnaround so you shouldn't worry too much.

In the end, I believe you don't NEED to be confused. If you still love him, it doesn't really matter, does it?

And whenever I watch straight porn, I find myself looking mostly at the guys also.

[prob1996]

Puberty and hormones really mess with you. I was convinced that I was bi because I was curious about girls and even kissed a couple but then my best friend and I were messing around alot. Then we became boyfriends and I fell in love with him. I realized I was gay and not bi. My point is that I'm still curious about girls. doesn't mean I love my boyfriend any less and I certainly don't think I would ever sleep with a girl now. I still have the feelings though

[Unlucky_Leprechaun]

Puberty and hormones really mess with you. I was convinced that I was bi because I was curious about girls and even kissed a couple but then my best friend and I were messing around alot. My point is that I'm still curious about girls. doesn't mean I love my boyfriend any less and I certainly don't think I would ever sleep with a girl now. I still have the feelings though

Good Point about being curious and confusion seems to hit me everyday ! :-)
I think if you just talk with him... tell him how you feel..be truthful it will all work out. I mean we are all young and attempting to put labels on this early can lead to problems when hormones and/or situations change. I am sure that you have nothing to worry about as you stated that you really have no desire to mess with girls. I think we all get wavering feelings sometimes...it is called hormones,

[Rossboy]

just another phase
im proud of you for coming out of the closet though!

[jrl719]

I'm going through the same exact thing. I came out as gay and I am now curious. I honestly don't let it bother me because it's something that I know will sort itself out. And if you come out as bi, you are not betraying anyone, youre just still fitting into your own skin. everyone will be totally understanding. So just sit through it, and enjoy your hormonal teenage years xD

What really awkward is that I came out last December too. Lol

[Donkey]

I'm gonna move this to Teen Sexuality.

[danny7]

i am still in the process of coming out, but i know im gay and i like a guy, and i also watch gay porn, as you said, even wif straight porn i think bout gays and look for the penis to "climax". To me, come out when ready and positive about it.
I too think Im bi cuz i like girls to, but mostly guys. If i were u, I would do what's right to you, admitting your bi and u dont no, it could work out better dan u think.

[deleteextreme]

Puberty and hormones really mess with you. I was convinced that I was bi because I was curious about girls and even kissed a couple but then my best friend and I were messing around alot. Then we became boyfriends and I fell in love with him. I realized I was gay and not bi. My point is that I'm still curious about girls. doesn't mean I love my boyfriend any less and I certainly don't think I would ever sleep with a girl now. I still have the feelings though

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